Secrets (n.g)

wait what?

I looked up and saw Jack, who was supposed to be in Cali-freaking-fornia keeping Nash from finding out about Mack. And guess who Jack was holding? My son. The one person I was trying to protect with all of this. "What the heck are you doing here?" I yell at Jack, grabbing Mack from his arms. "You're not supposed to be here in Omaha. You're supposed to be in California with fucking Nash." I shut my mouth real quick cause I NEVER cuss in front of Mack. Ever. 

"Sami let me explain."

"Save it Jack" I couldn't deal withthis right now so i headed to my car. I decided to not even look for Sam at this point but then I hear someone call my name. A name I haven't been called in a long time from someone that I missed so much, but new I couldn't see again. "SAMANTHA REGAN GILINSKY, IS THAT YOU!." well fuck. I felt tears start to form in my eyes. I started to speed up, I couldn't deal with this right now. 

"Nash, I can't." I kept walking without turning back. I finally got to the car and put Mack in the carseat. Then I felt arms wrap around me. Arms that I haven't felt in years. I missed him, I missed his scent. It's been 44 months since I left him and he doesn't even know why. Mack probably thinks Sam is his father. I'm a terrible mother. "Nash-" 

Nash snapped me out of my thoughts and cuts me off. "Samantha, please talk to me. Please!" I shake my head and get out of his grip. I'm looking everyewhere but in his eyes because I don't want to cry. I can't cry in front of him, let alone Mack. I just got into the car and drove home, listening to Jack and Jack's new mix.

NASH'S POV:

I am standing at the doorway, looking at the girl who left me. The girl I am still in love with. God, I missed her so much. I was surpised she was here though. Jack just said that he was watching Sam's kid while Sam was in the shower. Why was Samantha taking him? I had so many questions. I know Jack and he isn't going to answer them for me. One thing sat in the back of my mind though, Wilk's kid had blue eyes, not brown like his...wierd. oh well. I ran after Samantha. "Samatha Regan Gilinsky!" I yell and she froze, looking shocked. I took that moment to run over to her and put my arms around her waist. I missed her touch.

"Nash, I can't" She said just above a whisper. I just want to hold onto her forever. I don't even know why the fuck she left. Something about Me following my dreams with Jack and Jack. "Nash-" I couldn't lose her again so I cut her off.

"Samantha, Please talk to me, PLEASE!" I pleaded. I felt tears in my eyes. DAMMIT. I was supposed to be the strong one, the man. She just shook her head and looked away. What the hell did I do..? She just pushes me away and gets in the car, driving away. Leaving me in her driveway just like she did forty-some months ago. "I love you." I whishered. This time is hurt more. Seeing her hurt, hurt. 

I finally trugged back into the house. I needed to find out what happened the night she left me. Even if it breaks my heart more, I need to know. I heard yelling from upstairs. 

Sam and jack were in the bedroom and I decide to stop and listen.

"Sami is going to kill us both if Nash finds out, Jack. This is why you guys left 3 years ago. You and I both know she's gonna flip is she sees him. You know she still loves him. I have to hold her til she falls asleep sometimes cause she just cries." 

"SHE WON'T FIND OUT. She's kept him from Nash for 3 whole years. For God's sake Sam, Mack probably thinks you're the father by now!" WAIT THINKS SAM IS THE FATHER!? Does that mean... no she wouldn't have...

"YOU AND I BOTH KNOW NASH FREAKING GRIER IS THE FATHER. THATS WHY SHE NAMED HIM MACK HAMILTON GRIER, AFTER HIM YOU DIPSHIT. AFTER HIS FUCKING FATHER." 

I just broke down after that. I can't believe she left me and didn't tell me about my son. I just punched the wall reppetitively. I am such an ass. I can't believe I did this to the women I love. Did she hate me that much that she didn't want me near our son!?

The door opens and there stands Sam and Jack. Well fuck. I am screwed. 

"How much did you hear?" Sam says trying to stay calm.

"I'm Mack's father?" I whisper. 

"GOD DAMMIT JACK LOOK WHAT YOU DID. I'M GOING BACK TO MY HOUSE TO FIND SAMI." Sam yells. great.