Childhood Bestfriend/ XU MINGHAO

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         I'm here on the new room that i shared with the whole 02z liner. I'm just laying on the bed while scrolling on the twitter. I quickly hide my phone under the pillow and close my eyes when someone knock in the door...

       "Brat, dinner is ready!" I heard her and i have a strong feeling that she is now approaching the bed, "Are you sleeping?" She ask but i didn't answer for her to know that i'm sleeping, "This brat skipping her meal the whole day..." i heard her before the door closed...

            I open my eyes and let out a deep sigh. I get up and pick my laptop to fix the composing again. I even locked the door, so no one can interupt me. Bit before i even touch the keyboard of my laptop. Someone knock again on the door...

        "Get your ass here shane before i drag you by myself..." i heard Jimin unnie said on the door...Damn, can they just left me alone?

             I quickly close the laptop and open the door lazily. I even carrased my eyes because of annoyance...

       "I already ate unnie!" I said with a hint of annoyance...

      Jeongshil frowned, "Unnie, trust me...that brat didn't eat today...she keep skipping her meal the whole day..." she said while rolling her eyes on me...

         I raised my right eyebrow on her, "Did someone want your opinion? Get lost brat and let the unnie join you...i'm still full after eating some bread!" I said with a hint of annoyance...

           Unnie suddenly pulled my ears. I yelled because it's really hurt. I didn't know that i got all of their attention because of that. Jisoo and yuna unnie stopping jimin unnie for pulling my ears ...

      "Unnie stop...your hurting her!" Jisoo unnie said...

         Jimin unnie frowned while looking at the two, "I just drag her here because according to jeongshil, she keep skipping her meal the whole day!" She said while looking at me with a warning look....

         Jisoo and yuna look at me, "Come one unnie...I tried to explain my side which is i'm full because i already eat a bread but you kept listening on this brat!" I said with a hint of annoyance while pointing the girl beside me...

       "I'm just stating the fact brat..."

       "No one need's your opinion brat!"

      "It's a fact and not just an opinion...stupid!"

         "Don't meddle with my bussiness because were not even that close!"

           I notice that all of them look at me. Why? Because what i said was too much? Maybe but what can i do? I said it already...Jeongshil look at me with a shock face and Hurt was visible on her eyes...

         I just look at them blankly and head to 02z room again. I'm not really that cold hearted but i really have that attitude when i'm trully annoyed and the girls know it since we are trainee...And jeongshil know it because she is the one who know me the most...

        "What i said was too much? Shane, how could you say that on your sister?" I annoyingly ask myself...

        "Next time, don't let your emotion consume you..."

          I look behind me and i saw a three man standing there. Mingyu sunbae, Dk sunbae and Minghao sunbae standing there. I look away because of the embarrassment....

        "You know what, i understand what you've been through but it not change the fact that what you did before was clearly wrong!" Minghao sunbae said and sit on the other bed...

       "If you let your emotion consume you. Then you can be the reason of the failure of your group..." Mingyu sunbae said while messing my hair, "You are too busy and skipping a meal is not healty...if we are your members we will also forcefully drag you in the kitchen just to eat food!" He said and tapped my shoulder....

         
            I sigh, "It's just that, i already ate but they keep insisting that i didn't..." i said...

           Dk sunbae sigh, "You're lying...You are too pute to lie!" He said softly...

            "Do you have any plan to apologize?" Mingyu sunbae ask..

        I bite my lips while shooking. I also can't look at them because i'm afraid on their reaction. I heard them sigh....

       "Leader must do something to fix the misinderstanding of their group. Don't be overdramatic here and swallow your pride to apologize for your wrong doings.." minghao sunbae said bluntly that make me shock...And i'm sure as of now hurt is now visible on my eyes....

            I look at them. I pick my phone and wallet on the side table. I also wear my hoodie infront of them. I leave them on the room. They all look at me, imjin seem to approach me but cristine stop her by pulling back...

            'Run Away is not bad after all right? This past Seven years i always want to run away to pressure, Problem and memories that keep hunting me...At first, i thought that being a leader is just a piece of cake but i'm wrong....It's really hard because you can't really express yourself...You can't show to your member your weakness...You need to be strong as always...but, what if i'm tired?'

         I shook my head because of what i thought, "Fuck you shane, you just debuted a month ago and here you are tired? You don't have a fucking right to be tired...You are strong and you can go through this..." i said while hitting my cheeks....

           I felt a raindrop on my skin. I burst in cry when i remember the sunbae's words that really hurt me....Yes i know y fault....but can they blame me if i really don't want to eat because i don't want to disappoint our CEO....

             Since when i was young and ready to give up, Raindrops gave me a hope. I run again on the rain while crying. I didn't even bother the other person who's passing me...

            'Sometimes if you feel that you want to give up. Just wait the rain and let it flow on yourskin...Promise, it will give you a hope....'