Back into His Arms

PROLOGUE

"You liar!"she shouted as she entered the room then she went to me to slapped me.

Tears in my eyes start to fall down like a waterfalls.  I tried so hard not to cry and be brave but I failed. This scene makes me feel so weak.

"You are my friend, Alex. Freaking bestfriend! Kaibigan kita! You know how much i like him!"she cried even harder. Sinubukan kong lumapit para yakapin siya pero bigo ako.

" tell me! Anong kasalanan ko sayo para gawin mo 'to sa akin alex? Tell me!"

"Kelly, let me explain-"she cut me off.

"Explain what? Kung paano mo siya nilandi ha?!"

"No! No, let me explain-"

"Don't cut me off, you bitch! Malandi ka!"

Hearing those words from other people is okay. I can bear it. But this?No. Tears start to fall again  like a faucet. Never ending. Hearing those sentence from my bestfriend is killing me slowly inside.

"Kelly, she's not!" he shouted as he tried to defend me, but it's not enough to ease the pain that my bestfriend feeling right now.

"Don't you ever try to defend her Kael! She is a Traitor! A Selfish and a whore! Inagaw ka niya sakin!"

"Kelly! Can you hear yourself?! She is your friend!"

"Yes, she is! A friend of mine who betray me!"

"ENOUGH!" I cut them off bago pa sila na ang magka-sakitan.

I can't take it anymore. It's my fault. Kasalan ko ito. Kasalanan kong nahulog at minahal ko si kael. I need to fix it as soon as possible. I don't want someone get hurt again because of me.

"Yes, you're right Kelly. I am selfish." I smile weakly at her. "I'm sorry, I know it's not enough. But I am sincerly sorry. I don't want to see you hurting like this because of me, Kelly. I can't take it."pinunasan ko ang mga takas na luha saking mata at huminga ng malalim bago ngumiti muli.

"I love you, Kelly. I really do. You are my Bestfriend."

I look at the man of my life. The man who show me the light of happiness. The reasom why I'm smiling and keep fighting everyday. He teach me how not to give up easily.

My strength, My shine, and My love.

I smile at him with full of different emotions. He smile back at me like giving me a strength, a sign that I can do this. We can do this together. That's all I can wish for.

But I think I will fight alone, Kael. I'm sorry for this. I love you...

His expression change into shock, disbelief and pain. I'm still smiling like everything is okay. I need to be brave.

"Baby please, don't. Don't do this to me..."he beg as he tried to suppress his emotion, but he failed too.

I want to wipe his tears, so much. I want to touch and hug him, but I can't. I want to kiss him and tell him how much I love him, but I can't.

I can't see him like this, it's hurt. Sobrang sakit sa dibdib. Wala akong magawa kundi umiyak ng tahimik sa loob ko at ngumiti sa harap nila na parang okay lang ang lahat.

I can do this...

Nanginginig ang kamay kong inalis ang singsing na nasa daliri ko. Kael gave it to me and promised me one thing. He start crying. Sinubukan niya akong lapitan para hawakan at pigilan pero umiling ako humakbang paatras.

"This ring is not for me. This is not meant for me, Kael."mas lalo akong naiyak nang makita mismo mula sa mga mata niya kung gaano siya nasasaktan. I can't even look into his eyes.

"Baby please... huwag mo namang gawin ito oh. I can lost everthing I had baby, j-just not you, please..."seeing him like this is killing something inside me.

"Huwag naman pati ikaw... please, I'm begging you."lumuhod siya sa harap ko dahilan para mas lalo akong masaktan at umiyak. Ang sikip sikip sa dibdib.

Hindi ko na kaya!

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at kinuha ang kaliwang kamat niya para isauli ang singsing. Sinubukan niya akong hawakan para pigilan pero dahil sa sobrang panghihina, nakawala rin ako.

I badly want to say how much I love you and make you feel it. I badly want to touch you, hug you, and kiss you but this is enough. I can't do that anymore.

I leave the room without any words. Tumakbo ako sa abot ng makakaya ko. Dala ang sakit, lungkot at luha, iniwan ko sila. Iniwan ko siya.

Hanggang sa natagpuan ko na lang ang sarili ko na umiiyak sa bisig ni Ram. Umiiyak habang inaalala ang lahat.

"This ring symbolize my love for you, Alexandria Valdez. I love you more than anything baby. I'm not promising anything but one thing is for sure. I will always love you and I will never ever gonna leave you. No matter what happen. Ipaglalaban kita, hinding hindi kita basta basta isusuko, Alexandria..."