The Beauty of the Shadow

Prologue

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Prologue

I looked at him with tears streaming down my face. I couldn't do this again. He does the same thing over and over again to me and I won't let myself be a victim to him and his charm, his charisma, his.....everything.

He walked up closer to me and my heart started to beat loudly in my ears.

Then it fell to my stomach like a peach out surrendering to the inevitable pain. I looked at him as the tears started to dot the floor.

He put his arms around my body and I clung onto him. I nuzzled my head on his neck inhaling him, his spirit, his aura, his....everything.

I love this man, and I would continue to but I had to rebuild myself and work on who I was.

I nuzzled his neck harder and my body felt just for a second at peace with him, with the world.

But we had to talk about this, more so I had to address the next step.

"Brent, I don't know..."

Then he kissed me. He pushed me against the wall and kissed my lips as if we were never seeing each other again. But I couldn't do this with him anymore. It was too painful. I but his lip a bit hard just as a warning as he pulled away.

"Kelsey you know.."

"Stop!"

He looked at me. I looked like a frightened child with my hands pushing him on his chest.

"Brent I can't do this anymore, it's always the same thing with you, you pack, you leave, and I wait. I stay here waiting for you and I can't do it and won't anymore. You made me forget who I was, I don't know if I can continue this relationship."

"You're...you're breaking up with me." He stated in a whisper as he clenched his fists.

I nodded.

"You don't love me?" He scrunched his eyebrows and looked pained.

On boy, this man didn't even know the dimensions of my love for him.

"Brent." I sighed walking up to him pushing his forehead on to my own. I inhaled deeply putting his scent to memory.

"I love you more than I do anything in the world, even myself. And that's the thing, I should love me more than anyone, I put myself under you, I follow your calls but you don't follow mine. You make me wait for you and I do it without an argument. I can't do this. It's becoming so hard for me I just....I can't..."

He looked at me as a tear slipped from his eye. He breathed in deeply.

"How long have you....felt this way."

I shook my head, he'd be in more pain if he knew.

He gripped my shoulders, my body got goosebumps traveling everywhere. He was my drug and I needed rehab to ween out of it.

"Six months Brent, six months."

I couldn't look him in the eyes. It hurt too much.

I got my suitcase in my hand and walked to the door.

"I'm sorry Brent, but it's over."

"I love you Kelsey." He whispered into the air.

I nodded my head and walked out the door. I went to wave for a taxi and as they pulled up I looked at my house, our house and sighed.

And I love you B...