A list of things that aren't beautiful

1. Depression.

2. Beds that turn into bathroom floors, that substitute pillows with bottles and broken motives.

3. the feeling you get when you 

look at a picture of yourself with 

no scars. 

4. The bottom of the bottle.

5. The itch you get when you 

run out of ideas to stop the pain.

6. The "I'm fines"

7. The people who believe those lies.

8. Running out of tears to cry.

9. The urge to block out pain with 

even more pain.

10. Razors.

11. Pills.

12. Weed.

13. Alcohol.

14. Sex.

15. Getting angry that you're like this.

16. Having getting out of bed and breathing being the only things you're

proud of. 

17. Wishing you handle things like 

everybody else.

18. Wishing you didn't have to handle 

things. 

19. Wishing you didn't have problems.

20. Wishing you didn't have to be the 

"strong" one when everyone else around you falls apart. 

21.Wishing you didn't have to feel at all.

22. Wishing you didn't look like this. 

23. Wishing you didn't wish it it was over.

24. Wishing you didn't have to make a wish in the first place.

24. Searching for people to love, to cover up the fact that you can't love yourself. 

25. Allowing people to treat you awfully, because you don't feel that you amount to anything anyway. 

Things you need to learn about dealing with things that aren't beautiful:

1. Tomorrow is new. 

2. Get off the floor, throw away 

the bottle. Take a shower. Don't let them win.

3. Stop looking down at your arms when you see bare-skinned girls. Do not ever think of yourself as less. You are a broken wall that no matter how many hits it takes you will not falter.

4. Don't pick up the bottle.

5. Read a book. Write a poem. Laugh until your stomach breaks open. I promise you'll forget for a while. 

6. Tell the truth. Talk it out. Breathe. 

7. Don't ever believe a person who says "I'm fine".

8. If you need to cry, you cry. Get angry. Punch pillows. Go somewhere and scream until your throat bleeds out all the horrible things. I promise you'll feel better. 

9. You can't fix pain with pain. Find things that make you smile. Surround yourself with people that make you laugh. Listen to music. Go to concerts. Go to places you've never been. 

10. The feeling of causing yourself to bleed only lasts for a moment. In the end you'll feel worse. 

11. Pain reliever doesn't mean it'll relieve your pain.

12. Fogging your brain with looms of smoke won't stop the pain that's in your heart. 

13. Depressants don't make depression go away. 

14. You are more than a piece of ass.

15. Don't ever be ashamed of who you are, you are this way for a reason. You have just as much chance as everyone else.

16. If all you did today was get out of bed and breathe. You better fucking be proud. You're a fucking warrior. And if that's all you could do today. Pat yourself on the back. Treat yourself, keep going.

17. Stop worrying about everyone else.  People handle things in different ways and you can do this in your own way. 

18. Everybody has problems. You can either give up or keep going. I know you'll choose the right thing. I believe in you.

19. Don't ever feel sorry for how you feel. If you want to break, break. If you want to get angry, get fucking angry. If you want to cry, cry. But you better get up when your done. Dust yourself off and get back out there.

20. you can't shut feeling off, trust me I've tried. 

21. Stop thinking you aren't beautiful. Light can shine through cracks. Stop lowering your head as you pass by people. Keep your head up to the sky. You are not small, you are worth it. You are already in space. 

22. Stop wishing for things that you can change. You can do this. 

23. Love yourself before anyone else. You are you're number 1.  priority. You are yours before you are anyone else's. Don't settle for anything less.

24. Don't let anyone treat you like you aren't enough. Don't let people walk all over you. You are not dirt. You are the god damn garden. And you deserve to be watered everyday. Don't let anyone make you wilt.