Death is something that happens naturally. Sometimes it can not be helped, most time it happens on it's own but there are many ways a person may die, whether it be old age, disease or something people don't talk about often. But the way i died is different.
Although it is a disease, it's not your every day disease, that can be cured by medicine. If you want this disease gone you either have to lose your feelings or have surgery to have the infected area removed, but you would lose the ability to love.
My decision was neither, but because of my decision, someone will always feel guilty and it's my fault.
I decided to keep those feelings, even if it was one-sided, like the idiot I was but I loved them too much.
Some people think my decision was stupid and I should have gotten the surgery, but I think they're wrong. Why would you want to lose the ability to love?
But I guess this is all in the past now....and there's nothing anyone can do about it.
Besides...it was my decision And it was for the best...wasn't it?
This has not been edited so I apologise for any mistakes :)
