Searching Solace with Weeping Hearts

chapter-1

She don't know why tears are not falling from her eyes even though she felt heart break again and again with those words ringing in her ears.

Tum mere Zindagi mein aayein kyun? Main tumse milaa kyun?

Sab kuch kitna achha tha. aur sabse important baat Di khush thi.

Agar tum nahi hote tho shyam aisa harkath kabhi nahi karthaa.

Ye sab tumhare galthi hai Khushi.

You are the biggest mistake of my life KHUSHI KUMARI GUPTA.

Kaash main tumse kabhi nahi milaa hothaa.

'Maybe tears are also feeling that it's just stupid to fall from the eye's of a biggest mistake in every one's life like her.'
she mumbled and laughed at her own joke.

She knew life is not all fair and smooth path. Thorns must be there.
But, when she's crossing all that thorns to reach her destination with her bleeding heart, those stupid thorns are always taking advantage of her courage.

'But this is too much to bear.'

First her own parents snatched from her at the hands of destiny in her innocent age only.

Then her babuji paralysed attackwho protected her innocence with his protection as shield and showed love like his own daughter.

Then that leech shyam took advantage of that and always played cunning motives by betraying her and Anjali di whom she considered as her own sister at the same time in the name of love which is absolutely obsession.

Then her Arnavji!

Yes her Arnavji. whom she caught the glimpses of arnav in ASR which he shows only to his Di. She thought maybe she's going to be lucky to get his love.

If she's going to be lucky then she decided to tell him that leech truth whatever she might be called by her Amma for putting the Payal marriage with Akash in danger and he's ASR who always in control might taken care of Anjali Di's life by protecting and a giving a shoulder to her in the absence of her leech husband.

Otherwise she would've disappeared from their lives so that there is a chance of shyam might be changed without revealing truth and the damn chaos.

But he again came back to that atrocious hate circle by marrying forcefully and became the reason for her disown from their families.

'So much luck for her.'

She is the one who always believed that
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to break down and cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile and laugh again."

May be life is challenging her always like- 'Now smile and laugh,I'll see how can you do it?'

Like what's happening now. Much time hadn't passed that when she thought to her self
'Now, all that hate,grief, longing'll be gone from their lives which is the continuous solace for the past five and half months.

'Too much dreams and hope are not gonna do anything good to you.'

It always happened to her.

She knew that there's so much passion and tension always present between them which they tried to ignore towards each other due to their poles apart nature.

She had come to know that underlying his rude and arrogant personality he has a soft and kind heart which helped the little girl by buying flock of birds for her happiness.

And his care, concern towards his sister and fulfilling responsibility towards his family by his hardworking nature to provide luxury and comfort to his family without taken care of himself.

She wanted to be the one to take care of him always.
She started growing feelings towards him slowly and deeply that love penetrated into her every root and felt that soul stirring sensation in her at the thought of him.

She thought that there'll be no more hate and misunderstandings in their lives when she saw flirty and charming arnav present inside ASR during Payal and Akash's marriage who showed her care and love like tempting a little child by showing a candy without getting a taste of it.

That hope crashed with their forced marriage and his intensity of hate towards her. So she buried her feelings and appear as she also hated living with him but she knows the truth that she felt like she had gotten those stars in the sky by marrying him and the chance of living with him without any other thoughts.

But by habituated in living with him under the same roof for the months all those buried feelings and love started to rise at times like when he's in any bad situation. No,not at times. All the time she has that care and concern for him which always visible in her eyes to the naked eye.

May be that is what they call unconditional love.

Yes. she has unconditional love towards him. At what cost?
At the cost of bearing that monster atrocities and putting her life in danger to save him from the death.

She thought finally he showed empathy towards her and considered she's also the victim in the hands of shyam like his Di.

So much hopes and dreams for nothing.

She now firmly believed that all those names he called her on the Gupta terrace when he threw the words at her that she's the another woman in his Di's life who's going to destroy his Di,her unborn innocent baby had come from the bottom of his heart not from any anger.

"Main apne di ke liye kuch bhi Kar saktaa Hoon,tumhare jaise ladkin se Shaadi bhi aur Maine kiya."

"You don't have a character KHUSHI."

'Bas.. Don't'.she sighed to herself.

Her head is throbbing with all these thoughts.

She slowly raised herself from the floor and went to bedroom through the poolside door. She opened the medicine box from cabinet which is always arranged by herself for any emergency situation.

'So much planning.' she chuckled.

She gulped the aspirin tablet with water by filling glass from the jug kept on the bedside table.

Soon she fall into her peaceful sleep by breaking her chain of thoughts and escaping the reality for some time.

' Come on. This much right I have left to get some peaceful sleep whatever the damn situation I'm in' was the final thought when she fall into deep slumber.'