if only I was good at expressing myself

s.d

I've just figured I should start writing. The first chapter is dedicated to you. I never thought I'd ever write a book chapter over someone, especially over you.

I'm sorry I haven't been there for you.
I'm sorry for only being there when I seem to be having time for you.
I bet everything I say sounds like an excuse to you. I promise it isn't and it never was.
I've never lied to you and I never intend on doing so. I hope one day, in the future, you will forgive me.
I hope we'll be able to catch up on everything and I hope until then you will hold onto my words and remember them. I wish for you to be the best and happiest version of yourself. You've been through so much but I hope you'll be able to see the light shining through soon. You're a good person. You deserve it. You deserve all of it and every amount of love existing.

I wish I could have written you an actual letter instead of writing a text on here. I hope it can still feel the same to you though, so

please take care of yourself.
you mean a lot to me