The Loner's Famous Admirer

Chapter 4: A Peaceful Place, Or not?

Author's note:

KYAAAAAHHHH!!!! Thank you po sa mga nagbabasa ng story ko po pati sa mga nag-adadd ng story ko sa mga reading list. Pati sa nag-vovote po diyan... Muwah, Muwah! Hindi po ako makapaniwala na kahit post lang po ako ng post kahit anong kaechlavuhan dito eh binabasa niyo po... Arigatou Gozaimasu Double Triple Max!

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Lily's POV

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HOLY COWARDNESS. WHAT IS THIS PLACE?

"Wow!" This is it! green grasses, fresh air, and pretty smelled flowers... Uhmmm.

                        *SNIFF*      *SNIFF*

"Do you like this place?"

Oh - oh.. 

Wait, Lily, back to reality. YOU ARE WITH THIS TOAD!

 "No because YOU are with me!"  Having HIM around making my day to fall into pieces. How I wish this man to DIE! HAHAHA 

[Playing: Horror tone]

"Oh, come on. Tell your problem and you will feel relief. I promise!"

Toady said looking at me.

"I don't want to" Okay, I am the bitter one.

"Try it! Nothing will loose if you try" 

"If you leave me alone, will I try?"

"Tell anything anything you want to say - like you are angry with me or to them. Just spill it. I promise, somehow you will feel relieve with pain in your heart"

Okay, even I am with this stupid guy, I will try it. Bahala na si Batman in Tagalog.

Okay I will gonna blow it.

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            *sigh*

                  *inhale*              *exhale*

Okay, here I go. Spill it. Blow it. Shout it. Release everything you have in your heart, Lily. everything your heart knows.

 "I hate you Carl! I hate them too! You and that pathetic slut make my day worser than ever. I am just living in plain - like an invisible to anyone. And you will came by just to ruin it Together with what have done to my locker. By the way, you and your stupid tricks did that to me, didn't you? How dare you! Now I am the laghingstock of the school - again. i will give you a big THANKS to you and feeble-minded guys. All of you are the same! You just making me the down in everything! I hate you double triple forever!!! Well you don't know of my past, do you? That is why you can come around and fool everything. You are such a user. Worthless user. And those PLASTIC slut everywhere, how dare them to do that to me! I promise with all my revenge I will make You you and all of you will bow before me! Better yet, killing their soul. I'm so sorry God of what will i am gonna to do. I can't take it. They are like Satan's servant in wickedness. What is wrong with me? What should i change to me so that they can like me? Do i look like alien to them? Urgh.. Even I don't have any parents I can be my shoulders at this time! They left me absolutely nothing. Well, I can live WITHOUT them. Full of hatred ang felt UNLOVE! I hate you mom! I hate dad!"

 I said as my tears fall. I can not control myself. I want them more than to be my labor -  like dead maybe. Duh, I am so bad now. I am so sorry of what I said Jesus Christ. I can't control my anger. I want to release this feeling the whole time. I sense of relief. He's right. You will feel that the burden from your heart will lessen the pain and my regrets.

"Sssshhh I am so sorry of your situation." he said as he wipe my tears fell from my eyes. I can't. I don't have crying shoulders. Mom? where are you? Also you, I can not be my shoulders this time.

          * SOB*             *SOB*

"I can be your crying shoulders, Lily. I promise. I will protect you. I won't break my promise." he said as he hugged me. Oh, that makes me cry more - like to be a killer or mafia needing justice.

Hey Carl, actually I don't understand, of what you said. Can you repeat it?

"Carl, what did you say?" Curiousty kills, it just blows me. Wrong move, Lily, Wrong move. You will be so dead of what you mouth said. OMG to what will happen.

Buthe just gave me a sweet sweet smile.

"Please don't cry, Lily. I know it hurts. Well, sometimes. it make sometimes you don't want to live and you don't have to live or THEY don't have the right to live or any of those.  It can also make you want to feel love peace or hope that someday it will change everything. You want freedom, hope, care and love -ESPECIALLY the one who is so important to you. The feeling you want to be withe HER or THEM forever. Something like that. You want to run all you problems and leave it, but you can't. Because everything is depending on you. Something like that. So if I were you, you should make your move to change everything around you. Like something that make them respect you more. Not bullying you here and there and everywhere. You deserve it, not them. And by the way, you did not need to change anything just to likeyou. Be you! You are special on your own way. So, Cheer up!"

"T -thank you" That is the TWO words that pop - out of my mouth. I don know what to say.

"Thank you for saying that to me. Even you are my  hatest guy I known, I can say that is the nicest thoughts I heard" Well, that is the truth, right?

"You're welcome" I smiled bitterly.

"Even your smile can not hid what you want to hide to everything" I just nodded. Well, this ewwy guy giving me a lot of advices. Helpful advices.

"Well, I don't know what to say if I don't have you around."  What the heck, did I just said that? Remember, Lily, this guy tick you off. He is on your nerve. Oh my gosh, he might think it opposite. Oh -oh. I dunno to myself. Okay I will follow the flow

"And I'm gonna be with you wherever it takes." I -I'm speechless in everything he said... He hugged me and I hugged him back, crying. I can feel his warmth hug around me.

I just cry and cry. Well, I can cry more than 10 drums.

Then I feel that everything turned black.