"What do you want?" I ask queitly.
"I want you," he says pushing me against the wall.
"AMY!!" I scream.
"She can't hear you she's in the school now," he teases, coming in closer.
"AMY HELP ME!" I scream louder.
He silences me by kissing me. I withdraw into my mind and let him do what he wants. When he finally leaves me and goes to class I cry feeling dirty and disgusted at myself. I remember when this first started happening, I was only ten when I lost my virginity to my dad...
^Flashback^
He walks into my room, thinking I'll get the normal treatment I brace myself so I don't cry. Instead he takes me by surprise and comes closer. I can smell the alcohol on his breath.
"Daddy what are you doing?"
"I love you, you know that right?"
I nod.
"Do you love me?" he asks.
"Of course I love you daddy, why?" I ask, confused.
"Then prove it!"
He pushes me against the wall, though little I knew something wasn't right, "MO-" he cuts me off by kissing me on the lips. He forces me on my own bed, and I lost my virginity and had my first kiss.
^End of flashback^
It doesn't matter that I don't have a choice in the matter. That he still does it, and people at school do it to me too. The only one who knows about my dad is Amy. Suddenly I hear something and look up. I see Amy, and her clan. They march over and say things to me.
"Slut! Whore! You made love to your own father and wanted him to? That's just sick!"
I froze then, that's when I knew Amy had told someone my secret.
"Slut! Ugly! Look up!" KICK, "Look at me when I'm talking to you!" I'm shoved hard against the brick wall. The Amy jumps in, "Girls she's not even worth it lets go!"
They finally walk away and leave me alone with my thoughts. My own best friend? My only friend? Why? Was it to become popular? Then her words start running through my head like a knife to my chest. 'Girls she's not even worth it!' Is that what she really thought about me? Did she pretend to get close to find my secrets and share them with everyone? She's not worth it... soon Amy's words fade and I'm the one saying them...believing them. I'm not worth it. Why could I never see that before?
