I think about my life since meeting Paul and I realise I can't ignore my feelings for him anymore. I go to his house. He lets me in and I tell him I like him
He says, "Jenna, I did love you but we're obviously not meant to be together. Too much has happened for us to be together. I'm sorry, Jenna." I run home crying
The next day, my aunt is going to a few countries for two months and asks me to come to take my mind off things. I say I will think about it. I remember what Paul said last night then I decide to go as I need to clear my head
On the day I left, I had second thoughts about travelling as Paul was on my mind. My heart told me to stay in the country and try and work things out with Paul but my head said to go travelling
I spoke to Ashley and she said, "Go travelling. If it's meant to be with Paul, he'd go to the airport to try and stop you"
I thought about what Ashley said all the way to the airport and hoped that Paul would come and stop me. When I went into the plane, I thought to myself, "It's not meant to be"
But as I was waiting for the flight to begin, I saw Paul outside and he was calling my name. I wanted to run out to him but just as I decided to do that, the plane was going up and it was too late for me to go out to him
I went travelling for four months. When I was around the world, I made friends with wonderful people, who I'm still in touch with today. I also saw some fantastic sites and even had a relationship with one of the people I met. But despite all that, I never forgot Paul
