A Fairy For You

A Fairy For You- Part 1

"Well now really when we go back then falling in love and say that it's crazy "falling" see we don't say "rising" into love. You can think of it whatever you want, but I think it's called falling because the falling in love is way easier than the climbing back up, out of that feeling. Have you ever fallen in love? Have you known the feeling of pure happiness and existence? I once felt it, it changed my life"

"Juno If you don't get your ass down here in less than 5 seconds I will sell all your finished puzzles on eBay" my older sister screamed from downstairs. "I'm coming Jesus calm down!" my sister could be so annoying from time to time but I had to tolerate her because she was the only one who willingly drove me around town. I just turned 16 a month ago and I haven't had the time to study for my driver's license yet. My parents were never around. They both worked full time jobs and gave little to no fuck about there children. I didn't really care though, life was hard enough on me without the constant whining from my parents. If I had to describe my self in form of a term it would be "A nerd". I like reading books while eating my lunch during breaks. I enjoy the company of my imaginary friends while talking to myself in my room and above all I like making assignments on subjects i'm passionate about, not because I have to, but because I want to. I wrote a twenty-page long story about the existence of the white wolf and their background. People might make fun of me because I like that type of stuff but like I said, I don't give a fuck. they never expect me to say those kinds of things because from the outside I look kind of shy and taken back, but in reality I wish I could talk to people more often. Nevertheless, I like my life how it is at the moment, I mean it could've been better but i'm not complaining. Never mind maybe I am.

Till now school was never a big issue for me. I'm a straight A student and never have to stay for detention. Well maybe I lied during the part I said "straight", I don't know who I am yet but the people around me certainly do. My fellow students call me "faggot" or "fairy" at least a trillion times a day. Even the guys three or four years older than me pass me in the hall just to give me a dirty look on their way. You might ask yourself, "How would they know your sexuality before you do?", well maybe it has to do with the fact that a guy maybe 1 or 2 years older than me totally caught me staring at his ass. I didn't do it intentionally, but you know it was a nice view. Since then my life has been a living hell and I should be grateful if I get out of high school alive. But the worst is when I have to pass the group our school likes to call "the finders". Not because they have such a big desire to find a destination in life, but because they always find there way back into detention. For these people is high school there peak and after these couple of years nobody will even remember them as more then that junkie from the halls. God sometimes I have to remind myself that i'm lucky to not be one of those kids, but that doesn't mean I can't envy them. I would love to have such a close group of friends to joke around with, but then again they also try and make others their live as miserable as possible which isn't on my bucket list.

Today seems different, there's something about the group that's a bit off. Ah, now I see it, the leader of there little group is missing, Felix, God how I hate that dude. He thinks so high of himself a skyscraper would be jealous. He just orders everyone around with his cute little bunny teeth and perfect silky brown hair. God how am I ever going to get over this crush that totally got out of hand? I will remind myself every day how much of a douche he is. Then it will blow over by itself, right?