As I Said |an awesamponk short

As I said

"You look so beautiful right now..."

What the actual fuck?

We spend two years being in a relationship, a happy one at that. Then he fucking rips my arm off because he can't have his way and then dares to say that?

I sat down, crossing my arms, and move my eyes away from  Sam.  I look over to Foolish who gives me a soft, reassuring smile then goes back to talking.  We both had talked about this. Sam was at the party. He knew it was going to be hard for me so he offered his support if I needed anyone to talk to.

As I look back at Sam, I realize how hard this is.  Being apart from him.  We went from being together almost every day to avoiding even crossing paths.  I miss him.  But at the same time, he's broke me, more than in one way.  Emotionally and physically.

"Goddamit Sam..."

"What was that?" Bad asked.  Right.  He was sitting by me.

"Oh, nothing!" I groan, faking a laugh.

I look back over to Sam, who seemed to be studying me. I couldn't help as my face turned a soft pink, trying my best to scowl at him, only ending in him smirking and me becoming even pinker. 

"I- excuse me..." I stutter as I rise from my seat and step out of the cave.  I needed air.

"God, dam this mask" I whine as I rip the ski mask down my face and take a deep breath from the moist air.

"As I said, beautiful."

I turn around to see Sam. Of course, he would follow me.  He wouldn't miss a chance to try and make me forgive him.  He can't stay away.

"Go away Sam" I fuss, turning my back to the man.

It stayed quite a little before I felt hot breath on my neck and arms wrapping around my waist

"W-what?  SAM, THE FUCK! LET GO OF ME, WHAT THE HELL?"

"Shh.." he whispered, placing soft kisses along my neck.

I wanted to scream, push him away, attack him, yell at him for everything he did and ruined.

But I couldn't.

I've missed this so much.  Such small things that I didn't know meant the world to me.

The hugs, these kisses, the flirting, the love, the inside jokes, the dates, the waking up together in the same bed after a night of watching Netflix, the cuddles.  Him.

I didn't notice that I started crying.  But I was soon turned around to be held into his chest, him whispering soft messages, I'm sorry, and I love you.   Jesus, he's taller than I remember.

"Shh, it's okay Ponkie.  It's gonna be okay.  I love you so much.  So goddam much.  I'm so sorry."

I grasp at his suit.  My eyes turning down to see my metal arm.  But...but I didn't care.

I didn't care.