IT imagines & One-shots

1990s Ben Hanscom x reader

(⚠️⚠️Before you reader this. Please not that this fic includes things that might trigger some people. Like verbal abuse from pennywise and talk of self degradation. Please skip this fic if stuff like this triggers you! You have been warned.⚠️⚠️)

You had been walking along the sidewalk like always. Always the same routine everyday after school. When you got to a place where you could either go straight home or go down to the creek where you and the losers would go, you went against your better judgement and instead went to the creek. When you got there no one was in sight. So you put your bag on some dry ground and went over to one of the large rocks. You sat down and looked down at the water. Lightly skimming the bottom of your shoe across the water. When you weren't paying attention you accidentally pressed your foot down further and a bunch of water rushed into your sneaker. The cold water shocked you and you jumped up. It made you gasp out loud. Not a second later you looked down at your shoe and smiled. The thought of you jumping up like a frog and almost screaming like a toddler made you chuckle at yourself. You shook your head at yourself and turn around to get your bag from the grass along the bank. When you did you turned back around to exit the river, then you stopped. You saw two orange/red orbs. You didn't want to think they were eyes, but it really looked like it. You could even see the pupils in the middle. Just then, through the dark woods, you saw it stand up at its full height. It was also at that moment you realized that this was what the losers where talking about. Except you couldn't tell if the person or thing was a clown like they had said. You didn't know how long it had been, but soon enough the thing moved forward. This time it was finally in the sun light. You could see him perfectly now. He was in a clown costume. He had this crazy looking hair and and this unsettling smile plastered on his face. Then you noticed the nasty looking teeth in his mouth. They were sharp, like that of a shark. You were shaking now. You felt a wave of chills run down your spine. Then, he spoke. "What's the matter y/n? You scared? Scared to stand up to old pennywise! Who am I kidding. You've never been able to stand up for yourself! You're a coward! A freak! And all alone. Forever and ever until someone is sorry enough for you that they'll stay! You're a coward and a freak and no body loves you!" He yelled the last bit at you. Somewhere in your body, you had the strength to run. You just dropped your bag in panick. As you ran you heard him again "Run y/n? Run away like the scared rabbit you are! You'll always be alone!" It was from that moment on you couldn't remember anything else.
"And that's it?" Ben said as he looked at you curiously. You pressed your lips and nodded "Well I mean, I ended up getting the nerve to go back for my bag, but I never found it." You say letting out a small chuckle before falling silent once again. You look up again and see the losers looking at you. Looking back down again "I didn't want to believe him. I mean he was completely right. Still to this day I can't stand up for myself no matter how hard I try. Nothing I did mattered." You clenched you jaw tightly, you felt a hand on your shoulder right before you went off again. "I worked so damn hard to get where I was in that damned office! So damn hard! And did anyone notice? No! And when I was bullied and pushed around did I say anything to defend myself? No! Because I am still the scared little kid I was that day at the creek." You say as you drop your head into your hands. You let the tears run through the cracks in your hands as you silently sobbed. Just then you felt two arms wrap around you. It was only one set considering the awkward position you were sitting in on the couch in the library. Also as you sat there, just low enough for you to make out, you hear "shhh, shhhh. Its alright y/n. Control your breathing. Your nothing like you were when you were younger. We all were scared then. We all are now. But you know something? You came back here. That takes strength, that takes bravery and it sure as hell takes alot of courage. You are so much stronger than you think." When he finished you looked back up and saw ben. You couldn't tell before that it was him, but knowing that its him now, made some long lost feelings inside of you resurface. You squeezed your eyes shut and shook your head. Wiping away the tears on your cheeks you breathed out heavily. "What would I do without you guys?" "Well technically its more like what would we do without you? Cause honestly I think we'd be pretty damn lost and confused." Richie buts in and raises an eyebrow which gets a laugh out of you. Just then you feel the couch dip right next to you and looking over you see Ben. Smiling at you as he opens his arms wide. Signaling you to bring it in. You sighed out and layed back into him. Placing your head on his chest. When you did he placed his arm around you and placed his chin perfectly on the top of your head. When he did, you internally sighed out in contentment. For the first time since you arrived, no, since the day you left darry, you finally felt safe. And safe in the arms of your life long crush.