chapter 3

Zaniya POV
        We finally left the hospital around 10 we decided  to have a funeral  next Saturday . Zikeria & fatmama went home. I stayed over they house cause fatmama didn't want me to stay at that house. So we went her room and all I could do was cry , I cried my self to sleep. In the morning I cried more I went in the bathroom & took a hour shower. I got out my eyes was blood shot red from crying... Around 3 in the afternoon me,  Zikeria,  & fatmama decide to go to the park to get some fresh air. I felt like turning around cause it was a lot of Tyqurrious friends at the park and they was asking me where he was & I didn't know what to tell them. I just didn't say anything I felt like crying but I had to hold I'm my tears .It was a kids of ppl at the park all my home boys , & girls. Then I spotted Jake & some girl hugged up & kissing my supposed to Brothers Shawn , Zack,  Darius,  & jj was right with him laughing and shit like wtf ..fatmama saw wat I saw & went ova the right along with me I said (crying & screaming )" REALLY JAKE THIS WHAT YOU CHEAT ON ME WTF!!!  ALL THE SHIT WE BEEN THROUGH YOU SO CALLED LOVE ME & Y'ALL MY SOO CALLED BROTHERS HEA LIKE SHIT IS ALL COO ....NO IT'S NOT!!!  MANN. YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME NOMO he try to grab me NO DON'T TOUCH ME YOU WASN'T THINKING ABOUT ME WHEN YOU WAS WITH THAT BITCH ... JAKE YOU JUST PUT MORE STRESS ON TOP OF ME MY BROTHER JUST DIED AND THIS WHAT YOU DO??  AND DON'T SAY YOU DIDN'T KNOW CAUSE THE WORD DO GET AROUND & YOU KNOWN THIS FUCK YOU & THE REST OF Y'ALL TOO " walk away everybody staring but I don't give af then fatmama said "hold stop" I did and she went back and slap him & that hoe. That's why I love her I went back home & cried my eyes out & put my music on then my song came on

" Tell me that you love me, just so I can hear it
Say that you need me, make me believe it
Hold me close in your arms, said you'd never let go
Said that I'm your all in all, the only one that you want 
Said you don't fuck with nobody else, and I'm the only one
Said you'd never ever hurt me, and you put this on your son
Promised you'd never cheat and you would always be 1hunnid
Say you different from the rest baby

Tell me lies, tell me lies
Make it all sound good
Make me believe that fairy tales can happen in the hood, and when I get my heart involved, decide to let my guards down
Show me that you're just like them all I shouldn't of trusted you around"
  so you know I was In my feelings & plus I was thinking about my brother "why God why couldn't it be me "