Ink In My HEART

4.Is it too late ?

When u used to scold me ,
I always thought that u don't love me .
Once when I was 5 , and u hit me ,
I thought that u didn't love me .
You used  to talk politely with my younger sister,
But never ever even hugged me .
You didn't let me play in the evening,
But always used to let the younger one play.
That's the reason I started hating u ,
Because I thought only papa loves me not you .

That night when you left us forever,
I didn't even knew about it .
When I waked up at around  3 a.m.,
And saw our relatives,
I looked at the other side , and there
You were closing your eyes forever..

Forever..

I cried,  I cried for the first time I cried for you ,
No one told me that u went to the God , but I knew it.
That night I cried so much beneath the blanket,
No one knew about that, howmuch I cried.

My cousin brother took both of us to his Aunt's house,
After around 1 month of ur death,
We came back at our house.
We saw that my Aunt and Uncle along with their children started living at our home.

Aunt used to behave nicely in front of papa,
But in his absence,  used to give us cold and stall food .
One day , Papa saw her behaving like this,  and immediately asked them to leave the house.

My cousin brother took us with him to my Mausi 's house .
We stayed there for almost 1 year,
And after that we got a new MOTHER.
Initially I didn't liked her.
As I thought sh is also like  other step mothers.
But gradually,  I started loving her, then one day I came to know about that incident.

When I was a month old,
And while going to Maa Parwati 's temple,  located in a hilly area,
Before entering you prayed ,
''Please punish me ,but never my daughter ''

While climbing the hill , you slipped and fell down on the thorny bushes.
Papa kept me in a rock nearby and looked down,
You fainted, you were bleeding ,however you were saved.

Now when I think of all these,
I really, really feel guilty to hate you,
I hated a person , who loved me.
I was wrong to hate you ,
Infact you loved me the most .

But what 's the use of all this,
When you are not even with me .
You left me forever ..

And

Ever..

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A poem dedicated to my '' Mother''.
Sometimes we think , that our parents don't love us , or they loves the other sibling more.
But this is not the truth , sometimes we misunderstands them .

All I want to say through this poem is that love your parents until it's too late.

♡Nikita ♡