An broken girl

Chapter 2 - March 2015

9 years later it should of been over by now , do my parents not notice by my body language.. why they not taking my hints ? Do they even care ? All these questions going through my head as  I lay as tool of pleasure. Why me ? I been asking god the same question for years , why us. I could tell my cousin was taking it hard she started trying to kill herself , I thought for sure I would be saved now maybe they'll ask her why and she will tell them about the years of pain , tears , bleeding so scared not knowing what to do. The day never came it was up to me to save us but how if I said anything I would get in trouble for stealing the last cookie or going outside when he said  I could. No it's up to god to save us his kids , why was he letting this happened to us. He finished and got up this time I asked how i was , he looked back at me disgusted and said I could of been better and that he missed Kayla I cried harder for her. I didn't really know what happened to her when she went in the room he had stopped fucking us together long ago. I don't know why one day we was the next we wasn't , Kayla was supposed to come over the next day but I wasn't finna let her . I did everything I could I told my father I didn't like her nomore and that I didn't want to see her It hurted me all the years she wasn't there with me.. for me..... I paid for that but I was happy she was free. I wanted to be free but maybe it was only meant for one of to make it and that if I was it would mean her not being free. Ughh I hated life but I would not stop living i had something to prove to my mother not only my mother but the world. I could be stronger then this or I could let it stop my life . Sitting on my bed ready to put on my best show , waiting for him to walk in. He was happy to see me which he never was put a pain in my stomach, I began to undress but he said no. He locked the door and started moving closer to me , he lean down and whispered in my ear " I got it " he took all my clothes off and turned me over . This way hurted the most I turned back around and he hit me . He never hit me , he jumped real fast and started kissing me tears started to fall before I could even stop them. He got mad and turned me back over. He licked me then put it in I wanted to yell but couldn't find my voice. Everything turned black.