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"It's been 2 years, D." Y/n sniffed as she crouches down on the tombstone where the girl she loved and still loves is buried in placing her favorite flowers on her grave.
She didn't survive.
Two years.
Two years without her by her side. Two years after that son of a bitch, Sheriff Nick Goode killed the girl she loved the most. Two years without her and Deena cuddling, rewatching their favorite movie until they have had enough of it. Two years without her making y/n her favorite blueberry pancakes every morning. Two years without the feeling of her lips on hers. Two years without them arguing about everything and would end up having sex in a few moments. Two years without 'The D Hug'.
Y/n called it 'The D Hug' because Deena's hugs just hit so different it was so comforting and it was her favorite thing in the entire world.
But she was gone now.
And she couldn't do anything about it, what's done is done and it was all her fault.
She messed up.
Big time.
If she wasn't so dumb then she could have saved her, she would have been spending time with Deena right now and she wouldn't have to visit a tombstone every single day and talk to it like she was some crazy shit.
She blamed herself every single day her family members tried to reach up on her but she ignored them. She stayed in her room for two goddamn years not caring about life in the outside world but instead decided to be stuck in her world.
She was just in her room watching their videos on her old camera and would end up breaking into tears, sometimes she would mess everything up in her room and would clean it in a few seconds, she hated cleaning but she was willing to do anything just for her to be distracted. Played their favorite songs for the billionth time, tried to make pancakes just like how Deena used to do to her but ended up burning them.
She and Deena were together for 1 year and was best friends ever since they started first grade.
Everything had happened so fast.
When she got to Deena, she was already dead. She tried to revive her through CPR hoping that it would work as it worked with Ziggy Berman but it didn't.
She remembered that painful night so well. They did end the curse and killed Nick but it was far too late to save Deena.
Their two best friends also died, Kate and Simon. Everything had been so different ever since the three of them had passed.
It's been 2 years and she still hasn't moved on because it does hurt to try. Every time she would try to hang out with other people, all she could remember was her old friend group who was full of life.
"I miss you so fucking goddamn much, D." Y/n looked down at her grave as she let her tears flow. "But I guess I have to move on even though it hurts so fucking much just when trying, don't worry though, you will still forever have a place in my heart. I love you,"
After saying goodbye to Deena, she went to visit her other best friends and talked to them for a little.
From then, she had tried to be a better person. She knew Deena was just somewhere watching her from above and she knows that she is so proud of her. She stopped blaming herself because it was useless anyway. She started to make friends but she promised herself that she would never replace her three best friends who was now in a better place.
She knew that she will see them in another life but until now she just needed to wait until that day will happen.
author speaks!!
sorry, this isn't any romantic shit but i promise i will do that on my next, im literally loosing all my motivation to write rn idk why but i am tryinggggg, thank you guys for 400+ readers😍😘❤️🥰!! Also happy friendship day😁🙄🎉
-ani (she/they)
