you're y/n feir your mother, emily feir daughter of sarah feir. you live in a small house with your mother, step father and your 12 year old brother and your pet snake.
it was silent until Simon whispered into Josh's ear you couldn't hear what he said but it was obviously about you. That made you wonder about the voices and if they are even real, or if your just high.
"y/n. we still have to get sarah's hand." deena told you but she genuinely sounded like she believed you „do you believe me?" you straight up ask her you look at Deena, you look into her eyes her dark brown eyes shimmering in the basement lighting as she looks up at you after looking at sam... „yes.." deena answered as kate shouted at her with simon. you looked down from Deena to sam and looked into her eyes her light blue eyes, they reminded you of the ocean. and the ocean reminds you of Ryan because his favourite colour was 'ocean colour'. Deena 'snapped' at you for looking into sam's eyes like that. „Im sorry it just she reminds me of ryan." you admit to her. but sam really does remind you of him..sam's hair colour, her eyes and the way shes sitting right now. (like this::))
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her whole existence really just reminds you of ryan you cant help it but to just stare at her and get reminded of the times you, ryan, heather had together.
and of course the times you and ryan had alone. Ryan really was a good person. he might have even been the best person you have known...'known' why known. you still know him— well... hes gone. TW: MENTION OF SUICIDE SCROLL TO NEXT PARAGRAPH TO AVOID IT. but the memories. the times you tried practising flirting on him. when you shouted at his homophobic parents. when you stole his snake and hid him with zizi. when ryan stole zizi. when ryan locked your brother in the basement when you and ryan accidentally kissed, wow that was a big mess. when ryan fed your snake and got scared. oh and when he first listened to your music taste and hated it—- and 'bulled' you because of it. wow you miss ryan alot he is a big part of your life. so is heather but ryan and you just clicked, ryan was your best friend. not simon. Ryan is. Ryan has saved you so many times..from suicide. yes, suicide. your not depressed of course...not. just a low point.
yeah..so Ryan really is a big part of your life. but now he is possessed..thanks to mr fucking goode. Ryan is..was your best friend, your saver, your love. you loved him. in a friend way..but you really love him.
