Thoughts

Favorite Age

I have had an interesting thought lately. I never thought of being older then fifteen. Now I'm about to turn seventeen. I never thought of finishing school and now I have no idea on what I'm going to do when I graduate. However I have never thought of dying either.

I find it odd that when I was little and me and my classmates would play adult, I would always pick the age fifteen. never older, never younger. When I was fifteen though, nothing felt right. I'm currently sixteen and will be seventeen in December.

I now think of death. Whether or not I could die happy at any moment. Some days I think I can. Others I think that I'm not ready. If I'm honest I feel empty, well more like iffy, I still think about all the things that could happen in my life but I also think that I'm not ready to venture forth into that next chapter. 

I know where I want to go and who I would like to find, but I'm not sure if I actually want to. An odd thought for sure, but I think its a good one. So tell me your favorite age. tell me if you have reached it or if you are still waiting.