Her Fleeting Love

Chapter 04

I am waiting here in Dad's office. I needed to persuade him. I needed his support, especially now. I want to gain his trust. I want him to attend my graduation next year.

"Dad, can we talk?" I pled. I sounded desperate. He's ignoring me for months now. Mula noong nalaman niya na nag BA Film ako. 

"For what, Eunoia? I am not in the mood to argue with you" My dad sounded pissed.

I understand his feelings. He is the leader of a leading firm here in the country, one mistake costs a lot. Knowing that I am his only daughter, I must follow in his footsteps. An Eleazar should be a lawyer.

"After I graduate, I'll pursue law school" I affirm. Ang dami ko ng maling desisyon, sana ito tama na.

"Your course is not a pre-requisite for law, Eunoia. Ano sinasabi mong after you graduate? You will transfer school. I will make arrangements para hindi ka na bumalik ng first year." He commanded. Minsan talaga, nawawalan na ako ng respeto kay Dad. He's been dictating since I went to high school. 

"Pero Dad, I am graduating next year. Isang taon nalang, Dad." I convinced him. Please Dad, kahit ito nalang. Pagbigyan mo naman ako.

"Gagraduate ka naman next year ah, hindi lang sa lintik na course na 'yan!" He answered. Ano ba problema niya sa course ko? I thought he loved filming, why is he being this? Hindi ko talaga siya maintindihan.

"Dad, ba't ba ayaw mo ako makapagtapos ng Film? Is it because you failed to do so?!" I lose my temper. For  real, ano ba talaga problema niya. I worked hard para umabot dito tapos sasabihan niya lang ako ng ganoon.

"Tumahimik ka Eunoia, kung ayaw mong patigilin kita ng pag-aaral mo" He fired back. He's really mad, for what reason? 

"Then give me your reasons, Dad. Maybe,  I'll obey you." I defeatedly said. Talo naman ako palagi, I just hated when it comes to Dad. Hindi dahil lawyer siya, kundi dahil mahal ko siya. Siya nalang pamilya ko, eh.

"Your Mom hates Film, she's the reason why I stopped loving film. Mas mahal ko Mom mo, Eunoia. She's more important than my passion. I hate seeing you love the things I loved before kasi baka hindi na talaga babalik 'yong mama mo sa atin pag nalaman niya..." My Dad sobbed. Nagulat ako. Dad's reasons were too deep. I was too blinded by anger.

"Remember why I was pushing you to have good grades? I wasn't doing that for my pride. I was doing that kasi baka your Mom will come back. Maybe she will realized na tama ang pagpapalaki ko sa 'yo pero wala eh..." My Dad added. Without hesitation, I hugged my Dad.

"Sorry, Dad. I was too self-centered. I didn't know Dad, I didn't know..." I cried. From that day, I  wanted to get rid of what my parents hate. I'll quit the course, kahit na hindi pa ako nakakabawi kay Lucas. Maybe soon, pero hindi ngayon.

I  went to my condominium to pack things. I will transfer school by tomorrow since Dad already planned to do such. At hindi ako sa Pinas mag-aaral, I'll be studying at Canada. I am hesitant if I will bid my farewell to Lucas, baka hindi nalang. I am too much for him, I ruined his life. My feelings, I know this will eventually fade. Pag nandun na 'ko, makakalimutan ko na siya.