Imagines (Lorenzo zurzolo)

he cheated.

this is just a little sadder chapter ;(

"I don't know what to do , I really don't",the tears pricked my cheeks , I sat at the bedroom floor crying,

"Calm down y/n , please take a few deep breaths , think about this",
"I just want you to be here Estella , so badly ", my voice trailed off,

"I want to be there more than anything y/n",

I took a deep breath to calm down ,
"He shouldn't have fucking cheated , no matter how drunk he was", I swallowed the lump in my throat,

"He's an asshole , you deserve better , Leave him before it's too late",Estella didn't try hide the hatred she had for him.

"I'm sorry to have bothered you like this , ill be okay from here , ill think about everything ", I hung up , every guilty feeling passing through me to have others worry for me.

I walked into the bathroom , splashing cold water water over my face , my eyes puffy from crying.
I knew he would come home today but I didn't want to be there.We went to this party ,which I didn't want to go to , but he insisted it would be fun , he got so wasted and had me take care of him until I walked in on him making out with some trashy bitch.

It obviously wasn't all her fault , he should've stopped her, but he didn't and I wasn't looking forward to the "talk it out"part of it.

He called and texted , I ignored every single message.But we lived together there was no way to avoid him forever.

It was officially two days after , I felt like a wreck, any moment now he could walk through the door.And this was one of them, the door unlocked and I saw his figure walk through,
"Y/n", he tried to come up and give me a hug but I turned away,

"get your stuff and get out,"I tried to hide the shakiness of voice but I couldn't.

"don't do this, please ", he looked straight at me as much as I tried to avoid eye contact I broke.

I still had feelings for him , just because I hated him doesn't mean I stopped loving him.

"Lorenzo you made out with another girl at a party , that we were both at together", I fiddled with my jumper,

"I fucked up, I fucked up so bad , I didn't even know that a girl , she just came on to me and it didn't strike me to push her off".

"Don't". I pushed of his hands trying to touch mine ,

"If you were so willing to make out with other girls when you were so clearly dating me disgusts me".I couldn't help the tears that flowed down my face.

I sat down on the couch and he joined me keeping a distance, letting me sob uncontrollably.I saw the tears prickling in his eyes too.

"I fucking love you y/n and I know I'll never be able to gain your trust again, I completely understand if you want me to leave",

it was wrong off me but I hugged into his chest, even if he was the last person I wanted to see I was so hurt.He stroke my hair slowly and let me soak his shirt with tears.

He picked up my face and wiped my tears with his thumbs,
"You deserve someone who will give you the world y/n and that wasn't me". He kissed my forehead and went over to pack his things.

By the time he was ready i stopped crying , only my eyes red from crying.He had the duffle bag and other things in his hands ,

"Goodbye Y/n",

"Goodbye Lorenzo".
And just like that he left me , I was alone it was for the best but I never felt more hurt over a person.