Don't Fade Away

One Shot "Don't Fade Away"

Just stay out of their way. You've already done enough burdening to last a lifetime, you can contain yourself for a few months. It's not that hard. Stop being so dramatic all the time, not everything's about you and not everyone needs to touch you all the time, they're busy get that in your head.

This was Hyunjin's speech he told himself every morning after he woke up, before lunch, after dinner, and way too many times at night.

It's a promise, a constant reminder that he needed to tell himself in order to stay in line, in order to stop burdening everyone else, in order to do something right in his goddamn life for once.

Yes, it gets hard sometimes yes, he's a naturally clingy person and needs to constantly touch the people he loves and cares for but this, this right here was out of his control and the least he could do is not be another weight on their already heavy shoulders.

He was useless anyways, he had no talents, no special ability that set him apart from the everyone else, he was just the visual, that's what other people saw him as and that's what he is. That's the only fucking reason they picked him. He's pretty, he has plump thick lips and beautiful eyes. There's nothing in him besides that.

However, after 2 years of training you'd think he'd at least have some sort of skill, but for him, that's not the case. Maybe the hiatus was good for him, he'll just stay out of their way and everyone else could finally catch a break from him. He's an annoying leach anyways.

He's heard people talk around the company, and he can't exactly say they're wrong, because he is just a pretty face.

Catching himself tearing up from just thinking about the hurtful words they've said about him, he quickly wipes his eyes and makes his way to the bathroom.

He sighed once he caught his figure staring back at him. Pfft he can't even keep up his appearance. The only thing keeping him on this team. Yet he expects people to think of him as some sort of dance prodigy? Pathetic.

They were right, everyone was right, twitter was right, his thoughts were right, and the "victims" were right.

He was just wrong. He didn't belong, he never will, he was just a waste of space, and you know what happens to waste of spaces.

Hyunjin started sniffling noticing his appearance, he allowed the water collecting in his eyes to fall, hoping that they'd drown out everything he felt and all those expectations, so he can just be weak for once.

Gosh, this is not helping the whole "feeling like a burden thing."

Without realizing it, he started to sink into his own thoughts succumbing to the pain in his heart and molding into the ground. Hoping he's never have to face them ever again.

They're too good to me, they're too kind, they need to stop wasting their time on me and put their attention on something worth it.