If this was a Movie || NORENMIN

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"I'm scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how
I never heard silence quite this loud"

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After the wedding, the husbands non-stop calling and taking Renjun and Shufen out for a date. It an understatement to say Renjun is not affected at all. In fact, he keep looking forward of what kind of things they'll do next.

Jaemin always cooking dinner for them at Renjun's house, playing with Shufen when Renjun is late to pick up his son, making lunch for Renjun to bring it to his office, and plus, morning coffee. And everyday start with Jaemin's sweet words of encouragement and praise and the day end with Jaemin calling him to talk about his work life, Renjun's anger or any pent up emotions from working. God, he is such a nice and good listener.

And Jeno, somehow, he always calling Renjun to get up ready for work early, taking him to lunch together with Jaemin's packed lunch for both of them, get off the clock together and if Renjun is sick, he always cover up for him and taking care of him, drive to home together because Renjun will go to the school first before actually going back to his house to pick Shufen, and all silly jokes and constant confession of his feelings making Renjun all bubbly and always remind Renjun how loved he is.

Plus, all movie night dates, weekend dates to shopping, café dates and parks dates making Renjun sometimes give up to keep hating them. He couldn't lie to himself that he actually really enjoy all those things that the younger keep making up.

At nights, he cuddle with Shufen, asking him, did he want a new dads and all. Hinting the son that Renjun is ready to fall in love again. And the boy only answered, "If they treat you well, I'm okay with having new dads." And shut his eyes to stop his father from rambling about his feelings toward those two.

And yes, Renjun can finally feel the love that Jaemin is pouring to him. Every words he whispered mean a lot to Renjun. He cherish them the most and really love it so much. Slowly, he start to fall for Na Jaemin. But that doesn't me he's no longer in love with Jeno, it just, the feelings is on par. He like them both. Sometime he wonder to himself, how did he survive without both of them in his life.

"Junie, can I hug you?" said Jaemin who's left the teachers side after assisting them to usher students entering the school.

"Why?" Renjun frowned.

"You look less energetic today. I thought my hug will cheer you up," The black hair man pouted. His outfit that day is so mesmerizing. A knitted baby pink with a bit white plastered below sweater with white t-shirt inside, soft blue jeans and completed with soft yellow apron making him look very homey. He opened his arms waiting for Renjun to come and hug him.

The small man with black suit inside out sighed. He went and hug the taller and buried his face in the man's chest. Snuggling and sniffing Jaemin's scent that somehow making him comfortable. Strawberry and coffee scent all over the man making him calm and comfy. Little did he know someone will join the hug behind him making him squished from both side. The man rest his chin on Renjun's head and he heard Jaemin and the man kissing. 'It's Jeno.' He said to himself after smelling a vanilla and coffee like scent from behind him. He tried to push him away only to get a sudden tighten grip from Jeno making him suffocated.

"Hello? Renjun, you there? Hello?? Earth to Renjun?" said Donghyuck while snapping his fingers for nth times calling his day dreaming friend.

"Oh yeah, what was it again?" Renjun snapped from his thought that fly from his current self.

Donghyuck sigh. He glance at his kids and Shu Fen that running around with with their father and uncles. "So how was the 3 of you? Any good?"

The question making Renjun blush. Didn't expect Donghyuck will ask very directly to him. "I still don't know Hyuck. It's just too sudden. And I'm still not sure if Shufen is ready to have new people in his life." He shrugged. lying to Donghyuck for something he doesn't won't hurt isn't it?

"Jun, I'm gonna ask you some questions. Answer me honestly." Donghyuck hold the older's hands. "Do you forgive them?" he nodded. "Why that easy? Not after 9 years you shut them down. This is feels like dreaming you are hanging out together again."

The older nibbling his lower lips. Nervous to answer the question. He throw his look at Jaemin and Jeno that's still running trying to catch Shufen, Hyun Min and Min Ah, MarkHyuck's twin with Mark himself. "Truthfully, I still love Jeno. And it isn't easy Hyuck. I've loved him even before the fight. Before I shut them out. I swear if this was a movie, yeah, it'll only take me a month to accept them. But now it has been past half a year now, they are courting earnestly, sincerely. I know that look from Jeno, Hyuck. He did love me. they way he look at me, is the same way he look at Jaemin. I'm not oblivious. So does Jaemin. I see it too. But Hyuck, it's not that easy actually. Everyday I keep thinking, is this really will work? For now, I'll just go on with their plan and moves. But if I still feel crappy and the hatred still in here or think this isn't gonna work, I will leave them next year like the plan."

Truth is hurt. Believe me, when it comes to getting back someone's trust and love, it harder than you think. Like Renjun said, if this was a movie, they're together all along. But Renjun can't help but to always think of the consequences of the things he will go through if he choose to stay. It'll probably hurt more because he has accept them. All fears of them leaving him again, hurting him again, fall out of love. Future isn't certain making him more scared to move to them.

And the wound wasn't even fully healed. He is still hurting and sometimes, he dream of the day Jeno make fun of him and calling him names in the library. Pushing him away from Jaemin making the older fall from his seat. He's madly sad and angry, but God, who is he joking to when the person he love did it to him. Some of him trying to understand the action, but some part of him, he just hate Jeno to the gut. And Jaemin, the innocent Jaemin been hated because Renjun feel, he is the reason for all this happened. He frowned harder.

Donghyuck look at Renjun with concerns and worries paint in his face. The look of Renjun right now isn't someone who is in love, but someone who tried to hold back, someone fragile that will shattered once they are push. He pull Renjun into his arms and hug him tightly. Hands patting the back of the shorter male. "Everything will be alright. Trust me, you deserve a far more greater love. And I believe, after all this years watching them grow up to become the man they are now, they can give you the love you deserve. Only if you are ready to love them again."

"Yeah, I don't know man." He shrugged.