"Isn't funny? That when you find love that's when you hurts the most."
HOW OUR STORY STARTED
Hello! It's me Eurydice Cemilia and it is read as the way it is spelled but is different from the word that you know. I grew up in Gapan, Nueva Ecija and raised like a typical girl from the province. I'm a total meg and one of the boy's which says a lot on why I mostly hang out with Jann Orpheus Abedilla and his gang. Me and Jann met when his family decided to move here in our neighborhood. That was when we were like 5 years old. I don't really remember how, but as what my parents told me I practically proposed to him when our eyes met. I was playing on our yard and saw him getting off in their car and I ran up to him just to say that "Starting from today, you are mine!". Take note that I tripped while towards him that causes me to have a nosebleed. And that's the start of our journey together.
OUR CHILDHOOD FUN MEMORIES
We were like Bonnie and Clyde,an inseparable partners in crime. We always entered the same school starting from primary to secondary. During our elementary days, we decided to have these secret hide out behind our school. We always went there right after school just to hangout and do all crazy stuff. There was this moment when we secretly cut our bangs just to match ours. Obviously, we got scolded for doing that, but who cares? We all do crazy things during our childhood. And that's how childhood should be. Isn't?Oh also, I remember the that time during our history discussion the "sanduguan" thing was mentioned. It it the blood compact, where when two people promise something they slit a part of their hand and that wound would make contact. As what you predicted, Jann and the crazy me do that as a promise of a never-ending friendship. Well we got caught though and for the first time in my twelve years of life we both became grounded. But as a child being grounded was like a blessing in disguise because we won't be attending school. And we spent the whole day together just like what we used to do. But seeing the innocent smile on Jann's face that moment right there,the bliss started to get on me.
THE CRAZY THINGS OF YOUTH
Highschool came, that's when I started to get on the awkward phase of life. I also have the feels of butterflies in my stomach whenever Jann got near me. After that day when we got grounded, I started to distance myself to Jann because... hello awkward stage!And as I to distance myself from him, I tried to talk to other guys and so the little kilig moments with other guys. Some guys even started to show their interest on me and tried to court me. That's when Kyle entered the picture,he asked me out and even picked me from home to school everyday. Kyle entered the space that was once Jann's. He became my partner in every school activities, crazy trips and food buddy. Which I guess make Jann got angry or I'm just assuming. He also started to distance himself to me since Kyle came. But during our school anniversary, while me and Kyle are having our little intimate moment behind the school building Jann saw us. He ran up to him punched him in the face real hard. Which left me shock, having the guy that you're currently seeing and the guy that you are distancing yourself because you are slowly falling for him is so confusing. Like what am I supposed to think if he's acting like some mad man whose girlfriend got snatched on him. I'm confused! And that's the cue, Jann started to blurt out his feeling. He openly confessed to me right in front of the man I'm currently seeing. And guess what? The crazy Eurydice me straight out broken up with Kyle right there just to be with Jann. The Jann Orpheus Abedilla that was once her best friend has now became her boyfriend.
CHASING DREAMS WITH YOU
Our high school years passed by like a ball of joy as it is full of our happy memories as a high school sweetheart. Four years have passed then college came. As an aspiring future engineer and architecture, we both decided to study in Manila as we think it will cater our courses efficiently and standardized. Moving to Manila for a promdi girl like me was like a dream and everything is amusing, from the high buildings to busy roads and populated streets. For the first two years of our college year, Jann and I was like other normal college couple that does lovey dovey things in campus. We practically like a magnet, no one can break us apart. During our little moment Jan never forget to remind me on how much he loves me. From the moment that I open my eyes, I would wake up from his call just to tell me good morning and how lucky he is to have me. Also to good night call that would turn into telebabad late night talks and chikahan on how our went as if we weren't together the whole. We can't get enough of each other. So cringe right? Well, what can we do? That's how much we love each other. Besides it's our story, not yours so don't meddle.
PROMISED NEVERLAND
But as a college student we still encourage each other to have some friends and socialize. Since that's what would a mature should do, right? That's how I met Giselle. Giselle is a block mate of mine that has the typical college party goer aura. Which she lives up to actually. Giselle has always a big crowd around her, well who wouldn't like her? She is so kind, approachable, and a happy go lucky girl. Which is why I befriend her. She became my best friend in no time, as she always make me tag along whenever she goes. We became like sisters that no one would dare to break us when we are together. Then during our prepping period for midterm a block mate of ours asked us to go clubbing or whatever is it. And as a promdi girl that knows nothing about it and also as a crazy-spontaneous Eurydice, I went out with them. Though Giselle tried to stop me, cause she said that it ain't actually a good thing for me to experience that. I actually got mad at her that time. I feel like she is controlling me. Like why would she stop me right? She was once a party goer so why would she spoil the moment and stop me to enjoy my teenage years. In which, I wish I listened to her. Because that moment there was the start of my worst nightmare. Actually that night started as a fun night out. We drank alcohol beverages which was a first time to me. Correction, drinking without Jann was what I meant on the first time. Which was actually a good thing since no one would limit my intake for that night or so I thought. That night was like a total nightmare,I was totally intoxicated and wrecked. One moment I would remember myself hust drinking and having fun with the girls. Then at times I would see myself in the crowd dancing with whoever they are. Grinding and swaying my body with some other guy. Then poof blackout! As in total blackout, I can't remember anything or whatever happens after. And to make it worst, I woke up in the middle of nowhere surrounded by bunch of men whom I don't know. At first, I thought I was dreaming or such but the things suddenly starts to turn clear, When that moment came I just started crying and gasping for help. In short, I was raped. Yep, you read it right the night that I thought a dream come true moment turned into my worst nightmare.I tried to ask help, I even begged them but I get nothing. I am a victim, a damage girl, and a girl who have dark past.I know that I should have reported it or even tell other people on what happened but I can't. I'm scared from the judgement of people, I'm afraid from what would people think about me, and lastly, I'm terrified that if Jann found out he would leave me. I decided to act as if nothing happened because I'm scared that the innocent smile that Jann have would turned into disgust and his love would be hate. I love him in way that I am willing to act as if I'm fine even though inside I'm wrecked.
This story right here is ain't a typical narrative of a childhood besties turned into couple but a confession of mine as one of those girl who decided to stay quiet for the sanity of the people whom I love. I, Eurydice Cemilia, hereby tells my almost perfect fairytale love story.
