astral

anger

it's something powerful. transitory, but intense in the moment. it can be directed at one person; multiple people; or just a materialized version of all the things that arouse you. one single thing that drives your heart and seeks some sort of satisfaction.

it can cause people to do things they regret later. it can show oneself what their insides bring out to the world. it can be destructive. ruthless. harmful. not so easily forgiven.

but i speak for the people in that state. for myself, who does become angry and does give in to the impulse. im now learning that feelings are what tell you about yourself. and the anger shown to the world is a sign that someone is changing, going through something.

if we all considered the face behind the mask, the true catalyst for this type of behavior, then maybe we wouldn't be so quick to react. maybe we'd join in, speak about what makes us angry, what we hide inside and push away. we can all be angry and cry and scream and laugh and then pass out from the pressure. i imagine that's what it feels like to be drunk.

my point is: anger is a emotion we can learn from, just like sorrow, happiness, anything else. impulse can be our mistake, but understanding what has happened and forgiving and empathizing will make it easier for everyone: the one hurting, the one who's been hurt, and the ones who might not even know it but actually understand.

im sorry for any impulses that caused something bigger. i wish i could say that i wasn't angry at certain people, but i was. i was angry at so many people, so many things, because i was trying to process. it's not an excuse but i wanted to inform you all.

hope the temporary feeling of anger only has a temporary impact too.