Poetry

Keep everyone out

Since I was a little girl i was taught to keep my feelings to myself.
Going to my father crying, he told me to wipe my tears, and don't show anyone my fears. So I did.
Nowadays I'm hearing things like "it's okay to cry, you don't need to hide your pain" but I don't know which is worse; hiding your pain inside or showing people how weak you are?

I don't even talk about how I'm really feeling to my counsellor anymore. She says it looks like I'm doing great, little dose she know that this is all fake.
But it's alright, I've gotten pretty good at faking it lately.
I push all emotions deep inside for them to hide. No one really knows the real me, no one know how much pain I'm in because I cover it with a fake smile and i force a laugh every here and now.
I learned from my dad, that I shouldn't look sad or else people will eat me alive. And now I know that I should always keep people out, and never let them in.