~I'll save you~

~5~

(Remy POV) TW: Sexual Innuendo's. Self harm.

I watch as the sun rises, another day another dumb therapy session. I get up and walk to my door, I decide to walk to the building today, just to get away from Percy and Gio. I start walking, putting on my headphones and playing my playlist. I look at the nature around me. I take a breath of the cold air around me, I have to admit it is a nice day. 

I walk around a corner and yawn. A person comes up to me. Great, more social interaction. "Hey you look grumpy!" The small man with blonde hair and blue eyes. "Shut up." I reply but he kept on going. "YOU GRUMPAYYY GRUMPAYYYY EVERYONE THIS GUY IS GRUMPAYYY!!" I turn up my music louder and I run, desparately trying to get away from that demon. I see the therapy building! Thank god! The man keeps following me and I rush inside, not bothering to look at the receptionist, I run into the room where Picani is and i hold the door shut.

"Woah, are you alright?" Picani asked, looking confused and concerned. "I am NOT okay.." I admit as I sit down. "A man chased me while yelling at me. I have a headache." I hug myself. "Security will check that out, want some Aspirin?" I nod and he gives me aspirin and i swallow it with some water. "Thank you." Picani smiles and nods. "So, other from that, how are you today Remy?" I instantly respond with, "I'm annoyed out of my mind." Picani nods again slowly, "I get that." He says, writing in his notepad."Did you do the timer technique?" I shake my head and he sighs. "Make sure you do it tonight okay?" I nod and we continue.

"Well, I heard your friends were coming in today as well, where are they?" Wait- they're coming? Oh my lord this is a bigger mess then last time. Percy and Gio come in and sit next to me, they look at Picani and gasp, their mouths hanging open. Here's where the chaos begins. "Remy you didn't tell us your therapist was cute as hell!" Percy whispered and Gio nodded. "Please don't flir-" They smirked and went close to Picani's face, he backed away and Percy started flirting, "Hey cutie, how about you fix my little 'problem'~." Picani shook his head then looked at me, I saw a hint of fear in his eyes and i pulled them back onto the seat. "Guys can you not flirt with my therapist on the fourth day?" They shrug and Picani smiled at me. "Thank you Remy." I roll my eyes, "It was nothing." And so we started an awkward silence as I held the two's collars.

Picani broke the silence. "So Remy's friends, can you tell me what you and Remy have been up to?" I glare at them just in case they were about to say something stupid. "We've been taking him to Starbucks, trying to stop him from fighting and stop him from committing die." Picani writes something down. "Have you been providing him with support?" The two looked at eachother. "Yeah, by simply telling him to stop and not to do it." Picani shook his head. "And does this work?" They say yes and I roll my eyes. "Sorry, are you Remy?" They give him a blank stare. "Let him speak for himself." He looks at me, "Nah, it doesn't work." Picani writes and  gives me a red marker.

"What the hell is this?" He smiles a bit. "This is a technique I teach my clients. When you feel like cutting just draw on your skin where you want to cut. It's less harmful and it gives the same 'pleasure' of actually cutting." I look at him confused. "I thought we were working on the coffee addiction thing." Picani nods, "It's just something we need to establish before we actually get on to that topic okay?" I cross my arms. "Okay."  I lean back on the chair again as I hold the marker. I look at my friends and they are just staring at Picani like he's an exhibit at an art museum.  

"We are 20 minutes away from finishing up so how about we play some word association games!" Percy and Gio groan, they hate this kind of stuff. "I'll go first. Bird." Percy replies with "Cockatoo." After a few rounds of that, I realised how fast time flies by, we now have 5 minutes of the session before the ride home. "Okay, may I speak to Remy alone?" The two nod and walk out. "This session was eventful huh?" I scoff "Thats an understatement. Sorry for them. They;re weird." Picani giggles "Yep." I sigh "They think they help me. They make me want to kill them instead." Picani looked at me with some concern, "Don't kill them." I roll my eyes. "They're two of my very few friends I won't kill them." He sighs in releif and writes something down. 

"So, thats it for today! See you tomorrow!" I nod and leave the building. "What was that?!" Percy yells at me. "We do help you!" I shake my head "You don't." I grumble. "You're just a dumb pessimist. C'mon Percy. He can walk home. He doesn't want our help." And with that they drive away without me.  I thought they were my friends. I guess not. 

I walk home listening to music, surrounding myself with loneliness. I arrive home and slump on the couch, letting tears roll down my cheeks. I don't care anyway. Totally...ugh what does it matter! They hate me now and we're never going to be friends again because I was such a jerk. I fucked it all up. It's always my fault. I groan and get up. I walk to the athroom and look at myself in the mirror. I hate myself. Why do I mess everything up. I grab a razor from the drawer and I start to slit my wrists. 

I clean the razor and put it away, I stare at my cuts and I cover them up. I sit back on the couch and watch TV.