I feel so alone ....empty just drifting my way through life I feel like no decision I make is really mine..I feel trapped even in my mind ...it's like I am screaming underwater and nobody can hear me but I know they just pretend not to see or notice me gradually sinking into the darkness that dwells in my mind...I am slowly slipping Away form reality.
There was a time I used to feel sad but right now I feel not at all I smile but feel no joy ,i cry but feel no emotion I just feel numb,dead inside .
Honestly I am too tired mentally to truly react to anything around me so I just fake it ..I feel like a scam but I just can't bring myself to feel anything I want to feel something even if it's just pain I just want to feel alive but at thesame time I don't really mind feel numb is kinda comforting cause when you feel nothing then nothing can ever hurt you again.
I am exhausted mentally that I cannot even understand my self..
