You fixed my broken heart 💔

Welcome to pergatory I guess

Hi my name is Nicole and my mum died last year I am 16 and gay I live with my dad and brother, we just moved to purgatory and I have never been so scared in my life

"Have u got everything in the house Nicole" my dad said to me and god did I pray that I didn't miss anything but knowing me I did and he found it shit

I ran up the stair acting like I didn't hear him and started to unpack my bag full of thing that was mostly cloths

"NICOLE" he screamed up the stairs "yes dad" I shouted but not loud in a sweet voice so that he didn't think I was being a bitch

"COME HERE NOW" he screamed up the stairs again I came running as fast as I could and my brother was just standing there with a beer and to be honest I don't blame him as he was dads toy until mum told dad I was gay

"Yes father" I said not wanting to make eye contact "you forgot one" he said with an evil smile on his face and I new that I was in for a good beating so I stood there trying to look tall and got read for a hit

SLAP

he hit me across the face and as I fell to the floor he kicked me in the side but I wasn't aloud to move in pain or say anything or another kick but I got use to hits so the pain was pretty numb. I waited till he was gone to get up and run back up stairs he didn't talk to me for the rest of the day and just like always no dinner for making that one mistake so I went strait to bed

The next morning I woke up before my dad and William my brother so I went for a run as it's the only time I felt normal and free as I was running I saw this girl so gorgeous like the most gorgeous person in the world but I didn't stop as dad would be up soon and I can not be gone because god knows what he will do if he woke up and I was not there

I got home just in time because as I shut the door I heard dad say my name so I ran to his room to see what he wanted "yeah dad" I say at the end of his bed

"GET ME SOME WATER NOW" he screamed at me again but you know I deserve it just like I deserve to get beaten every day like I deserve to watch the only person I have left turn into a reliant to alcohol and it hurts every day to see him like that but I deserve it so it's fine "yeah I will be back in a sec" I say wanting to scream at him for everything but I couldn't so I did as he said and watched a bit of TV

I was going to make some breakfast but I probably shouldn't as I wasn't allowed dinner last night so I just sat and waited for what ever father had for me

My brother finally got up and the first thing he got was a bottle of beer because god forbid he actually get a real drink but I understand him and he understands me so you know I let him drink his life away but at least I still have him right

"Hey you wanna go out like just you I can cover for you" I looked at him with a confused face why did he want me to go out "why do you want me to go out?" I said as I stood up and he just stood there with pain in his eyes he must have heard me cry last night after getting kicked in the side as his room was right next to mine "you know what sure tell dad I have gone to get more beer or something" I ran up to him and gave him a hug "thank you" I pulled away from the hug "no worry's now go before he comes down" I left the house I didn't know where I was going or who I was going to meet but I just walked as fast as I could to get out before dad woke up

I was walking for about an hour I had found this mountain to hike so I did as that was the kind of thing I liked to do and without realising I had been gone for 5 hours and that there was the biggest mistake in the world

I ran as fast as I could to get back but as I opened the door I forgot the beers so he new that my cover up was a lie "WHERE ARE MY BEERS" he yelled at me but stupid me flinched shit "you know what" he said walking over to William I wanted to stop him so bad but I couldn't my body froze and he tied William to a chair what the hell was he doing "you want to help your sister you can sit and watch knowing you can't do anything" he walked over to me and took his belt of because it was the worst one from all of the hits

WACK WACK WACK WACK

I got several hits and by the time I was on the floor I way crying in pain so there was a kick and another and another and another but the last one was in the face and I'm pretty sure he broke me nose but I still was just laying there and letting him hit me as my big brother watched he was screaming at dad but there was another kick and that's when everything went blurry another kick at this point I thought he was going to kill me another kick and my eyes started to close "DAD STOP YOUR GOING TO KILL HER LIKE YOU KILLED MUM" William screamed at my dad and then the kicking stoped and I opened my eyes to see my dad punch William as hard as he could "get up and go bed now" he said to me and even know the last thing I wanted to do was leave William I had to he was right dad would have killed me there and then and that's scared me so much so I jumped up in pain and held myself so I didn't fall again and went upstairs

For the past half hour all I have heard is screams of pain from my brother but I couldn't move my body was broken all I wanted to do was run down there but my body was frozen so all I could do was cry hoping he don't kill my brother

I sat there for another hour until my brother finally came up and sat on my bed with me that was the worst he had ever hit ether of us so we didn't talk we just held each other for the rest of the day

"DINNER IS HERE" dad yelled out the stairs "I will get it" William said moving to the door but I couldn't speak so I just thanked him and as he was gone I remembered I had school tomorrow how was I supposed to hide these bruises I will have to think of something I guess

William came up and he had a couple of chips for us and some chicken I didn't know where dad had got them from because I didn't know what takeout they had here

We finished eating and William left "try get some sleep you have school tomorrow" he said as he left and he was right I did need sleep but I also needed a solution for this black eye and broken nose. I guess I will just have to wake up early tomorrow