Something I guess.

Something.

3rd pov:

The so called girl everyone knew online as dreamer was sitting up on her bed playing roblox with her sister after months of not playing it. After, her sister wanted her to play some Friday night funkin, which she said yes to cause she didn't have any other reason to say no. Her sister knew she hated it, but she wanted to make her little sister happy.

After some time of playing. The clock on her laptop said 1:47 am. "You should go to sleep ariella" she said while looking at her tired sister. "But it's not even that late!" Her little sister said not wanting to leave. "But I have to go to the vet with ma tomorrow so I might need sleep" she said to her little sister. "Fine okay then" her little sister said unplugging her computer and leaving the room. Dreamer found herself getting up and went to the door saying goodnight to her little sister and closed the door.

She was tired, yeah she was. But she always waited until 4 am to text her beloved (platonic) wife. Dreamer really admired the other, she was really pretty except from herself. She always saw herself as ugly and fat. After her old "friends" always called her names for being a little chubby. Which she used to cry a lot to it. She would always walk to school with puffy eyes and due to the fact she usually cried herself to sleep at night. And she still remembers her old bff. Which told her that she would never leave her. Lies.

She left dreamer devastated, she thought that all of it was her fault. Overthinking everything. Crying every night thinking how much she messed up breaking a friendship she had for years. Until one day she grabbed a knife she had in her room everyday for no reason. She shakily grabbed it and thought of just cutting her veins or just stabbing herself. She wasn't at her best as you can see. She put the knife down and ran to her bed to do her daily routine of crying. She wanted to cut very badly, but she had a better idea of cutting her own hair and feeling a little better. She still ended up cutting, cuts were not very visible, which she cut herself, but very slightly. Not wanting to have scars and her parents noticing.

Enough of her past. Now let's continue.

She just spent most of the time reading some fanfics and then noticing the clock on her laptop 4:03 am she read. Still no text, she started to panic a little bit. Maybe the other was busy? Or maybe she fucked something up and messed everything? Maybe she just ruined another friendship? It was all her fault. She kept overthinking until she got a text from the other telling her to go to bed due to the fact she had to go to the vet at 7:30 am, which was in a couple two hours. She refused and completely forgot about the message and decided to finish reading the fanfic she was reading. Then it clicked her, "shit right!" She said while doing back to discord and seeing that the other said that she better be asleep due to the fact that she's taking long to respond and which she wasn't obviously, and the other also said that if she wasn't asleep the other wouldn't talk to her. She messed up didn't she? She thought the other was maybe joking. She texted the other and got no response. Texted again, no response. She called the other to try and get their attention. Still no response. She panicked. 'She hates me doesn't she' 'I fucked everything up didn't it?' 'I'm a horrible friend..'

She decided to play some more Friday night funkin mods to get her thoughts out of her head. She played for maybe 2 minutes. Started overthinking again, and before she knew it, tears streamed down her rosy cheeks, leaving obvious trails of tears. She started sobbing harder. She wanted someone to comfort her, she hugged herself. Why can't she be the one loved for once? She's always there for everyone, always giving them support, giving them comfort, giving them love. And what does she get in return, nothing. She's always just a little therapist to everyone, it's not like she needs one herself. "I'm just a useless piece of shit" she said sobbing a little harder. "Just a little therapist to everyone, just a little toy to everyone.." she said sobbing harder. "And a fucking crybaby..." she said sobbing harder and harder.

She sighed and lied down. Putting one of her arms on top of her eyes. "I'm so tired.." she said sobbing.

"Just so tired..."

Word count: 800

(a/n)

Ignore me here venting stupid shit. I really need to sleep, I have to go to the vet to take my cat there in like one hour now.

Take care of yourself hun

ily ❤️

Time finished: 6:12 am

Date: 4/8/21