I'm a girl that has nothing. I'm not tall, exactly just 153 cm, not slim, actually i'm fat based on my height. Well, i'm not pretty too because i don't have a boyfriend until today. And i'm 20 years old. Can you imagine how i am look like? I know you can.
Nothing special happen in my life until now. My cycle just home, university, library, and back to home again. Everyday is like that. Boring? Well, i don't think my life was that boring before. But, now i'm facing the crisis when i'm really bored and lonely with my life.
I want someday, in the morning, there is this man who call me and say good morning with a smile in his face. I want my head be patted and say 'it's okay, it's okay' with him. I always want to smile and thinking about him first time when i woke up in the morning.
Is it really difficult to find that man?
Friends? I have many girl friends. But, i don't have one bestfriend that can heard my complaint or watch movie in the middle of night when i feel lonely. When i need to talk to someone and crying my heart out, i can't call anyone of them. I don't know why. Maybe i'm afraid to be judge. Maybe i can't talk to them when it's night cause i know i will disturbed they sleep, or i haven't trusted them enough for me to tell them all of my 'dark' secret. I can't being me around them. I don't have any boy friend either.
But, i need this friends. I need them to make me less lonely, or i hope so.
I know this happen to all people in the world. But i just can't get lonely more than this. I need someone who can give their shoulder when i cry, hands to help me up, smile that can my heart bit. That's why i need this man and one bestfriend to come. To fill my boring life. To change them to be fun and exciting life. I need those change in my life but i don't know how.
I don't know what exactly i have to do with my boring life. I need someone to help me.
Can somebody please help me?
