Can We Fix Things?

Chapter VI

Present

I was walking into the building with nothing but nerves and nausea, what if she doesn't want to see me and gets mad or what if she puts herself in danger. I keep thinking of bad things that could happen if I go but I still have to try, if not for the truth at least for her well being. So here I go.

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I'm talking to Dr. Kan right now but I have this ominous feeling about something or about something that's gonna happen. "So Ms. Ji-eun how are you feeling today" Dr. Kan asked with a slight smile "Feeling the same as usual Dr." I said empty which made Dr. Kan's smile fall "How about we talk about what happened after what we talked about last time" he asked. "You mean the heartbreaking scene that should only belong in a movie" I said with pain in my voice "We don't have to continue after that if you don't want to" asked Dr. Kan "No, I can handle it" I said so sure of myself "I went home after everything and cried and felt empty" I said with a broken smile "I told myself that I was ok when I really wasn't and my bandmates knew so they told our manager to get me help" I looked at Dr. Kan "I was then told I needed a break" Dr. Kan then said "Do you need a break Ms. Moon" he asked with concern "Yeas I do" she said "Well how about I go get us coffee from the lounge I'll be right back" Dr. Kan said walking out and I started looking at my phone but then I heard the door open again and I thought it was the Dr. Kan but when I looked up I stopped breathing for just a second "Namjoon" I said his name like a whisper.

"JiJi, I...I came here to talk" he said walking closer to me but I backed away slightly and he looked hurt but so was I "what could we possibly have to talk about to each other after 3 months Kim Namjoon" I said with so much pain, hurt on my face and tears in my eyes looking at him "JiJi please I need to tell....no plead to you how sorry I am about everything" he said crying with tears streaming down and it pained me to see him this way but I remember how I was hurting "Namjoon I can't deal with this I haven't healed properly and I wasn't ready to see you yet" I said sitting down by the window "Please JiJi I need to tell you how sorry I am for everything" he said kneeling in front of me holding my hands "Namjoon.....I can't please try to understand me about how you made me feel and how you broke my heart when you are the first guy I loved and now we-" "Do you not love me anymore, is that it did all the pain turn to hate and anger that you just don't love me anymore JiJi" he asked with so much pain in his voice and cracking because of the tears and him trying not to cry while talking "Namjoon I'm not ready to talk to you, not yet but please give me time to work through this" I asked him "If you really want me to hear you out then you'll wait for me to heal" he stood quiet and then I heard him crying in my hands on my lap kissing and holding them, we stood like this for an hour then it just got quiet and I checked to see if he was ok but I found out he cried himself to sleep. Dr Kan came in to see if we were ok and saw that he was   

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Time Skip 2 Months

During this time Ji-eun continued to talk to Dr. Kan and was a little upset at him for telling and showing Namjoon all their PRIVATE sessions about her health but was also thankful to him for it. Namjoon kept texting Ji-eun after that day with encouraging words about getting better and for her to take care of herself everyday. Ji-eun thought she was finally ready to see him again and talk things out for their future, if they will continue to be together or separate but be friends, so she's heading towards their cafe that they would go to after school. She is waiting by the back window so no one would notice her and him if they walk in, and as she waits there he walks in with his natural attire which seemed so sophisticated since we were in school it's like he never changed.

 "Hey, have you ordered" he asked with his dimple smile since he took off his mask when he sat down "No I was waiting for you to get here" I replied with a smile "Hey I'm gonna order for us ok wait here" he said heading to order or original drinks and then comes back with the drinks in his hands and sits down "So how do we start talking about...us" he asked nervously "Honestly I don't know" I said with a sigh "Well what do you want to do with us" he asked scared of my answer "Namjoon can I be honest" I asked looking at my cup "Su..re" he said hesitantly "I thought about giving up on us after you believed those men over me..." I paused and took a sip of my coffee and looked up at him "But if you are willing to put us first above everything then I'll forgive you for everything but it has to be now" I said knowing he will still chose his career over me.

 "If that's all it takes to keep the love of my life then consider it done" I looked up shocked and watched as he takes out his phone "omg what are you doing" he chuckled "Taking a picture to post telling everyone how long we've been dating and how much you mean to me" he said with a smile but I was too scared about what fans and his company would do to us or more of...... me "Namjoon are you sure I mean what about your company and fans-" "Forget everyone else for a second because those things took too much time from us already Ji-eun" he said being the most serious I've ever seen him.