Kelan ba ko huling nahing masaya?
6 years ago?
2 years ago?
Last month?
Yesterday?
Hindi ko na maalala.
Naging masaya ba ako?
26 years old na ko pero hindi ko matandaan kung kelan ba talaga ako huling naging masaya.
Oh! Yes! Last December 2018 I gave birth to a very beautiful baby girl. But i don't wanna include her in my first chapter of my life. She's in the second part and probably up to my last.
My story is not so wonderful to read.
Simple lang kasi ako as in.
Since birth palipat lipat na ako ng tirahan, minsan sa lola ko minsan sa tita sa isa pang tita sa tito ko kahit saan.
I never really experience having dinner with my family, No it wont happen ever! Baka magka gera pag nagkataon.
Wala akong close kahit isa sa mga kapatid ko.
Wala akong permanenting kaibigan.
Ow! Meron pero nasa France na, malayo na hindi na pwedeng dumamay sakin pag gusto kong umiyak gaya ng dati.
Mula pagkabata gusto ko lang talaga makipaglaro sa mga kapatid ko, pero ayaw nila.
Elementary days, gusto ko nasa school lang para maging malaya. Thou malaya din naman ako pag nasa bahay, malayang awayin ng mga kuya at ate.
I dont worry anything pag nasa school ako. Makikipag away ako kung kanino ko gusto, kasi akala ko yun talaga ang dapat, kasi yun yung nakikita ko at nararanasan ko.
After grade 6 I went to Manila to study.
Nothing magical happen.
Except when im with my truest friends , I learn to be me. I learned that I am capable of being a good friend too.
They introduce me to God, and to anything na may halong mali.
Cutting classes para lang mag picnic.
Cutting classes para lang manuod ng movies.
Cutting classes para suportahan ang mga kaibigang sasabag sa mga contest.
I didn't regret anything what I have done.
I enjoyed.
I feel happy
I felt like I belong to them and not with my family.
But they say, anything good comes with a bad . I don't know if tama ba.
I love my aunt and uncle.
I really do. They kept me when i bady need them, they put me in a very nice and comfy school.
But deep inside me, i dont want them to do that for me. It should be my parents to do that. It should be them . I should be with my siblings.
No. I should be far from them I know. I dont belong to them.
They are happy without me. And I'm happy without them too.
Ang gulo ko.
Ang gulo ng isip ko.
Pero sana kasi hindi nalang natatapos ang High school.
I miss my classmates.
My friends.
My crush.
My teachers
And the lady guard.
The canteen vendor.
My happiness stop when i graduated in high school.
