I really dislike this because my eight year old self would hate my 14 year old self. To learn that she hates everything and everyone. To learn that one of her new neighbors and best friends kill themselves. To learn that everyone she knows hates her and the only person that can even tolerate her anymore is the brother she hates as an eight year old but dearly loved as a 14 year old. She would be mortified if she learned that when she's 14, the fun bubbly red haired girl, will want to end it all so badly. That is why I kind of hate this because she wouldn't want to live like that and still become that no matter how she tried.
