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Peligrosa 45

     Lalisa Manoban

"I love you" those three words that I've been wanting to hear as the first time that I felt this towards her . But it baffled me on how she said it out of the blue and wherein we are in the middle of a possible  announcement of her engagement tonight.

There is a part of me wanting to accept it but there is a bigger part of me that wanting it to reject her . I won't be able to escape from this misery if I am going to accept her with full of doubt from her past.

I just can't.

"Lalice?" She called my name one more time that causes me to bring my attention to hers especially to her eyes.

"Stop this Miss Kim" and there I said it . Silence is too loud from my decision and I can't even think if that answer to her was even my full response .

"Lalice---"

"No stop it Miss Kim . I can't deal with you anymore . I have to get out of here" was this even right? To leave her but then again the thought of her that she will still kill me sooner will never change my mind . I have a future and life to catch .

"Are you sure about that lalice?" She asked , her eyes for the first time I am now seeing her emotion through her eyes that is wanting me to change my answer.

" I'm sorry " I said and just decided to walk away from her , and I am not expecting her to do anything to change my answer. Usually when a person that she is talking to opposed to her or she didn't like the answer she would just force me to change it and viola it would definitely change in a span of a minute or two.

But now something is really different because she didn't even get angry like what I used to see when we have a different decision .

"Lalice I can save you" those words from her did stop me from a walk and it is another confusing words to hear . Because there is a chance that all of the words that is coming out from her out might be a bait for me to change my mind and to say yes to her.

"Miss Kim stop this" I whispered , the memories of her doing things to me keeps on coming back. She can't just say random things just for me to stay and kill me afterwards.

"Stop playing with my emotions please" turning around facing her , the look in her eyes . Something really changed .

"Because to tell you honestly even if I love you that doesn't mean that you are going to fully change by yourself "

"You will still kill people , you will still hurt them , you will still sell illegal things like a whole fucking mafias should do"

"And at the end of the day. You will still kill me"

"So stop saying random things in front of my face like there is a chance for you to change because you aren't going to change"

"You will still hurt people for the sake of your reputation and pride of your clan . I get it . So who am I to change the shit out of you?" With all the emotions that I am busking and repetitively collecting throughout my thoughts it just came out right in front mouth and on her face.