Life is hard

chapter 2

I was currently hanging out with my guy friends from middle school. I became friends with them after I got in a fight with my two best friends, or should I say ex best friends? they treated me really bad after a couple of years and I never really got a reason but it's all good. But any who I met these boys after they are so nice they really care about me until we got to high school. High school changed them , they all got girlfriends and stopped talking to me. Except one his name was Saul he hanged out with me the most during times and I really appreciated it he had introduced me to his other friends and by that I meant just one .. His name was Richard once I saw him I was straight drooling. He was so hot and I couldn't handle myself around him so I made Saul do all the talking he said hi I said hi back and then we talked for a while and went home. Ever since Saul showed me Richard I've been looking for him. not to be like a stalkerish I texted Saul about Richards last name so I can find his facebook so I pretended my "friend Brooke" wanted to know and I got it!! so I instantly went on facebook and searched up his name and sent a friend request. Three days later I got no acceptance from him so I unfriended him and did it again so he can notice it. It was about like 1 hour later I got an accept from him! so I messaged him because it said he was online so I didn't want to be like annoying so I just said a simple hey! he said one back asking what I was doing I told him he didn't seem interested and as soon as I was thinking that he messaged me back saying "hey I gtg I'm going to play soccer with my friends" I said okay have fun when I really didn't wanna end the conversation. We would talk for a while here and there but I never seen him in the halls. That's until Saul had told me he was a sophomore .. I made a big mistake in telling Saul I had liked Richard. He told me to tell Richard I liked him and I did as so. He messaged me back saying "I wish I can say I like you too but I don't know you that much lets talk more and find out more about us and see where it takes us." I was happy with the answer because I felt like I had taken it too fast. Ever since I told him I regretted it so bad because I would see him in the halls and not talk to him because I was so nervous and scared. about 2 months later we stopped talking but would see each other in the halls. I see that he had been talking to some other girl and it hurt me but once again I didn't put any effort into making it happen I mean would you be scared when you've only had one real relationship that you never got your first kiss or anything? yeah. but after him talking to her I found out they were dating.