Shy

Replay

* 4 years later *

"COME EAT LIL GIRL!" Trina yelled up the stairs. I rolled my eyes and got off of my bed . A proceeded out my door down the hallway.

"LIL HOOCHIE I SAID GET OFF THE PHONE AND COME EAT !" I heard her yell , even though I was literally around the corner. I didn't say anything just sat at the table , not a word. What was the point ? The bitch drunk , she stay drunk . Always talking bout I'm the reason.🙄 I give her "personal issues" .

" So you just going to sit down and not acknowledge your auntie lil girl? Huh ?" She said slurring words and fumbling towards the table .

I just sat there still not a word, which infuriated her more . "YOU DONT HEAR ME TALKING TO YOU SHYLA? Is Shyla to grown to talk to her auntie ? Shyla think she's to good for Auntie Trina huh ?"

I still said nothing just started putting spaghetti on my plate . She stood up , grabbed the spoon from my hand and flung the spaghetti on me.

"Eat that shit off the floor like a dog, sense you wanna act like a lil bitch." She proceeded to hit me across the head with the spoon. I just sat there further more , spaghetti sauce and noodles dripping from my hair and face . Just wondering why , why me?
I began to wipe the food off of me , as she went into the kitchen and grabbed the rest of her gin . A manly drink for a manly bitch . She walked out the kitchen taking a swig from the bottle and looked at me .

"When you're done slut puppy , clean my kitchen up." She took another swig and walked away .
Yep. Clean the kitchen , like it's not already 9:45 p.m and I do have school in the morning, but rest isn't needed I guess . I began to cleanup the spaghetti that was all across the table and floor. I then proceeded to the kitchen to start the dishes . It's 10:15 pm , I'm wrapping up the kitchen when I heard the keys to the front door jingle to unlock . I just want to run away , I just want to escape. But where would I go ?😣

I'm loading the last few dishes in the dish drainer when I felt two large hands start to caress my arms and massage my shoulders. He kissed my neck and back , goose bumps flooded my body but not the good kind .

" You missed me today beautiful?" Ricky whispered seductively.
I can't take this anymore , I don't want to give him my body . But why even fight ? It's not going to make it better I'll end up like last time.

"You know my auntie is upstairs drunk . I'm sure she'd like your company. You know liquor can get her you know, In the mood " I calmly replied.  I Felt his hands tighten on my shoulders .
" I asked did you miss me . I didn't say shit about Trina did I ? I'll get to her when I feel like it" he said sternly .

My back still turned away from him , I was still standing at the sink .  I wish he'd get it over with , stop taunting me Ricky .  I felt his hands caress my figure , And his private part hardened against ny back. . He turned me around and began to kiss me . Tears immediately fell from my face , I couldnt help it I'm so tired .
"Why you crying beautiful ? I'll make it better ." He said with a smirk on his face . He enjoyed my pain , my sorrow , It's like I gave him the reaction he wanted, He felt dominant .  He proceeded to bend me over the sink and well you know. He began very slowly but within seconds he began thrusting so hard , I ended hitting my head on the faucet repeatedly. He just keep going for about another 5 minutes before his release , he let me go .

" Get the towel , and wipe me up" I did as he said , he smiled with victory . He pulled up his pants , slapped my ass and walked away .  At least it's over right? 🤦🏾‍♀️ My head is totally hurting ,  ears ringing from the constant head hitting .  I grabbed an ibuprofen from the medicine cabinet and then went to go upstairs to my room .  As I walked passed their bedroom I heard them talking. 

" Why do you always go to touch her first ?  I'm your wife Ricky."
He said nothing .
" You've barely touched me in 4 years Rick! What's wrong with me !?" 
The silence broke a few moments later.
" I just like hers better ." He said with no remorse . 
I heard him get into the shower , and she began to weep .  I started for my room once more . I can't believe this shit . I promise I wish he'd only touch her too  ,I've been touched enough ... 4 years worth of enough .

I turned off all the lights in my room and laid in bed. Ever just laid there trying to stop thinking ? Just why me ? What did I do to deserve anything , I don't want to be here anymore . Tired is a understatement at this point . I just want to be with my mama .

I glanced at my phone time it read 12:01 a.m August 17th. Well.....

" Happy 17tj birthday Shyla"....