How To Be A Heartbreaker

Seven

Grace

I didn't talk to anyone for a couple of days, I didn't even leave my bedroom and no one was allowed . Only Aria, our housekeeper , will bring me food so I don't starve . My brother was worried, and so was Ella, mostly because I refused to talk to anyone about what happened or how I felt. I couldn't tell them, even if I wanted to, simply because I didn't know. I didn't know how I felt or what exactly happened, only that he tried to apologise and I didn't give a shit.

Why should I ? If he didn't mean what he said, he wouldn't have said it. Anyways, enough with the bastard, the only thing I have to worry about today is what I'm gonna wear tonight, Ella said to wear something neon so I gotta search in the depths of my closet for that neon pink tank top I had, God let's hope I find it or else I won't hear the end of it from my best friend if I show up in anything but that. I moved from my bed to my closet, opening the doors and sighing at the sight, it looks as if a bomb exploded in there.

This is gonna be a pain in the ass to find

" Aha, there you are !" I exclaimed after two hours of searching for that damn top, maybe I should stay in next weekend to organise this mess I call my wardrobe, or just take the stuff I actually wear and move in with Ella. She has been begging for me to move into her apartment since our freshman year but for some reason I always find an excuse to avoid answering her.

It's not like I don't want to move in with her, I just feel like I'm not ready for that yet, although I've been thinking of taking up on the offer more this days, maybe I'll actually leave, I mean I am an adult, it's not like I'm gonna run away. But to be honest my dad has started to become more insufferable to live with this last month, and so has Helena.

I stretched my arm and blindly tried to find my phone, after getting a hold of it I dialed Ella's number, placing the device on my ear whilst balancing it with my shoulder as I looked for my skirt. After a couple of seconds of ringing she picked up the phone sounding concerned

" Hey are you ok, I wanted to call but I wasn't sure if you wanted to talk to me or if you need to be left alone because I know how it gets when you get panic attacks and Dave said - " I cut of her rambling, I felt terrible sometimes, she was such a good friend , always there and it made me feel selfish because we always talked about my problem and never hers.

" Hey, hey El, I'm okay don't worry,, I just, you know what, it doesn't matter that's not why I called, but I'm fine." I took a deep breath, and asked her

" Is the offer about the roommate thing still up or " I trailed off as I heard her squeals, giggling a bit at her reaction.

" Yes, yes of course. Do you need any help with packing, I can come over, I have some boxes from when I moved we could use. Oh my God, Gracie, you have no fucking idea how happy I am." the brunette said, sighing when she was finished

" Hey Gray, you're still coming tonight, it's okay if you don't feel like going, we can do something else, " she said, concerned with her sweet voice. To be honest, I really wanted to say yes and stay inside but on the other hand, we always do what is convenient for me , and that was not fair for her

" No, no I'm still going, I already picked out my outfit " I heard her laugh at my teasing tone, making a smile to rise on my face

" Alright, I'll come pick you up at 9 "

" Okay, see you then. '' we bid our goodbyes and I let out a long breath, unending questions flooding my mind

What if Dario is there, God, I don't have the energy to face him. Or even worse, what if Steve is there, I don't think I'll be able to hold it together. It's already bad that everytime my eyes meet his in the halls, he has that stupid smirk on his face, that I would gladly puch if I could, but the fact that his a bit over 6 feet doesn't help