the agreement|thomas brodie-sangster

three

Kate has been shopping, as only she can, for clothes for her vacation to Barbados. Mainly bikinis and matching sarongs. She will look fabulous in all of them, yet she still makes me sit and comment while she tries on each and every one. There are so many ways one can say: "You look fabulous, Kaley." She has a curvy, slim figure to die for. She doesn't do it on purpose, I know, but I haul my sorry. I have gotten told to pack boxes so I walk into my room. Could I feel more inadequate? Before I start, I text Thomas.

Thomas

Okay, I've seen enough.

It was nice knowing you.

I press send hugging myself, laughing at my little joke. Will he find it funny? Oh shit-probably not. Thomas is not famed for his sense of humour. But I know it exists, I've experienced it. Perhaps I've gone too far. I wait for his answer. I wait... and wait. I glance at my alarm clock. Ten minutes have passed. To distract me from the anxiety that blooms in my belly, I start doing what Kaley asked me to do-packing up my room. I begin by cramming my books into a crate. By nine, I've heard nothing. Perhaps he's out drinking with Dylan. I pout petulantly as I connect my AirPods and turn on Spotify. I sit down at my small desk to reread the contract and make my comments. I don't know why I glance up, maybe I catch a slight movement from the corner of my eye, I don't know. But when I do, he's standing in the doorway of my bedroom, watching me intently. He's wearing black sweatpants and a black top, gently twirling his car keys. I pull my AirPods out and freeze. Fuck! "Good evening, Marisol." His voice is cool, his expression completely guarded and unreadable. The capacity to speak deserts me. Damn Kaley for letting him in here with no warning. Vaguely, I'm aware that I'm still in my sweats, unshowered, yucky, and he's just gloriously yummy. And what's more, he's here in my bedroom. "I felt that your text warranted a reply in person," he explains dryly. I open my mouth then close it again. The joke is on me. Never in this or any alternate universe did I expect him to drop everything and turn up here. He sat down on my bed. I glance around my room, plotting an escape route. No-there's still only the window and the door. My room is functional but cosy-white furniture, white walls, a wooden mirror, a tv, and a silk light grey duvet. Finally, my brain works its purpose. I breathe. "Would you like a drink?" Politeness wins out over everything else I'd like to say. "No thank you." He smiles a dazzling, crooked smile, his head tilted slightly to the side. I might need one. "So, it was nice knowing me?" Holy cow, is he offended? I stare down at my fingers. How am I going to dig myself out of this one? If I tell him it was a joke, I don't think he would be impressed. "I thought you'd reply by text." My voice is small, pathetic. "Are you biting your lip deliberately?" he asks darkly. I blink up at him, gasping, freeing my lip. "I wasn't aware I was," I murmur softly. My heart was pounding. I can feel that pull, that delicious electricity between us charging, filling the space with static. He's sitting so close to me, his elbows resting on his knees, legs apart. Leaning forward, he slowly undoes one of my pigtails, his fingers freeing my hair. My breathing is shallow, and I cannot move. I watch hypnotised as his hand moves to my second pigtail and pulling the hair tie, he loosens the hair with this fingers. "So you decided on some exercise," he breathes, his voice soft and melodious. His fingers gently tuck my hair behind my ear. "Why, Marisol?" His fingers circle my ear, and very softly, rhythmically, he tugs my earlobe. It's so sexual. "I needed time to think," I whisper. he knows what he's doing to me. "Think about what?" "You." "And you decided that it was nice knowing me? Do you mean knowing me in the biblical sense?" Oh shit. I flush. "I didn't think you were familiar with the bible." "I went to Sunday school, Marisol. It taught me a great deal." "I don't remember reading about dildos in the bible. Perhaps you were taught from a modern translation." His lips arch with a trace of a smile, and my eyes are drawn to his mouth. "Well, I thought I should come and remind you how nice it was knowing me." Holy crap. I stare at him open-mouthed, and his fingers move from my ear to my chin. "What do you say to that?" His eyes blaze at me, his challenge intrinsic in his stare. His lips are parted-he's waiting, coiled to strike. Desire combusts deep in my belly. I take preemptive action and launch myself at him. Somehow he moves, I don't know-how, and in a blink of an eye, I'm on the bed, pinned beneath him. My arms stretched and held above my head, his free hand clutching my face, and his mouth finding mine. His tongue is in my mouth, claiming and possessing me and I revel in the force he uses. I fee him against the length of my body. He wants me, and this does strange, delicious things to my insides. My inner goddess glows so brightly she could light up Poland. He stops kissing me and opening my eyes, I find him gazing down on me. "Trust me?" he breathes. I nod, wide-eyed, my heart bouncing off my ribs, my blood thundering through my body. He reaches down, and from his pants pocket he takes out a pitch-black tie... that black tie that leaves small impressions of its cashmere print on my skin. He moves so quickly, sitting astride me as he fastens my wrists together but also ties the other end of the tie to one of the spokes of my white headboard. He pulls at the binding, checking it's secure. I'm not going anywhere. I'm tied, literally, to my bed, and I'm so aroused. he slides off me and stands behind the bed, staring down at me, his eyes dark with want. His look is triumphant mixed with relief. "That's better," he murmurs, and smiles a wicked, knowing smile. He bends and starts undoing one of my trainers. Oh no... no... my feet. I've just been running. "No," I protest, trying to kick him off. He stops. "If you struggle, I'll tie your feet too. If you make a noise, Marisol, I will gag you. Keep quiet. Kaley is probably listening through that door right now." Gag me! Kaley! I shut up. He removes my shoes and socks efficiently and slowly peels off my sweatpants. Oh-what underwear am I wearing? He lifts me and pulls out the quilt and duvet from underneath me and places me back down, this time on the sheets. "Now then." he licks his bottom lip slowly. "You're biting that lip, Marisol. You know the effect it has on me." he places his index finger over my mouth, a warning. Oh my. I can barely contain myself, lying helpless, watching him move gracefully around the room. It's a heady aphrodisiac. Slowly, almost leisurely, he removes his socks and shoes undoes his pants and lifts his shirt over his head. "I think you've seen too much." He chuckles slyly. He sits astride me again, pulls my t-shirt up, and I think he's going to take it off me, but he rolls it up to my neck and then pulls it up over my head so he can see my mouth and my nose, but it covers my eyes. And because it's folded over, I can't see a thing through it. "Mmm," he breathes appreciatively. "This just gets better and better. I'm going to get a drink." Leaning down, he kisses me, his lips tender against mine, and his weight shifts off the bed. I hear the quiet creak of the bedroom door. Get a drink. Where? Here? Portland? I strain to hear him. I can make out low rumblings and I know he's talking to Kaley-oh no... he's practically naked. What is she going to say? I hear a faint popping sound. What's that? He returns, the door creaking once more, his feet paddling across the bedroom floor, and ice tinkling against glass as it swirls in liquid. What kind of drink? He shuts the door and shuffles around removing his boxers, they fall to the floor, and I know he's naked. He sits astride me again. "Are you thirsty, Marisol?" he asks, his voice teasing. "Yes," I breathe, because my mouth is suddenly partched. I hear the ice clink against the glass, and he leans down and he kisses me, pouring a delicious, crisp liquid into my mouth as he does. It's white wine. It's so unexpected, so hot, though it's chilled and his lips are cool. "More?" he whispers. I nod. It tastes all the more divine because it's been in his mouth. He leans down, and I drink another mouthful from his lips... oh my. "Let's not go too far; we know your capacity for alcohol is limited, Marisol." I can't help it. I grin, and he leans down to deliver another delicious mouthful. He shifts so he's lying beside me, his erection at my hip. Oh I want him inside me. "Is this nice?" he asks, but I hear the edge in his voice. I tense. He moves the glass again and leans down, kissing me and depositing a small shard of ice in my mouth with a little wine. He slowly and leisurely trails chilled kisses down the center of my body, from the base of my throat to between my breasts, down my torso to my belly. He pops a fragment of ice in my navel in a pool of cool, cold wine. It burns all the way down to the depths of my belly. Wow. "now, you have to keep still," he whispers. "If you move, Marisol, you'll get wine all over your bed." My hips flex automatically. "Oh no. If you spill the wine, I will punish you, Miss Salotti." I groan and fight the urge to tilt my hips, pulling on my restraint. Oh no... please. With one finger, he pulls down my bra cups in turn, my breasts pushed up, exposed and very vulnerable. Leaning down, he kisses and tugs a each of my nipples in turn with cool, cold lips. I fight my body as it tries to arch in response. "How nice is this?" he breathes, blowing on one of my nipples. I hear another clink of ice, and then I feel it around my right ipple as he tugs the left one with his lips. I moan, struggling not to move. It's sweet, agonizing torture. "If you spill the wine, I won't let you cum." "Oh... please, Thomas... sir... please." he's driving me insane. I hear him smile. The ice in my navel is melting. I am beyond warm-warm and chilled and wanting. Wanting him, inside me. Now. His cool fingers trail languidly across my belly. My skin is oversensitive, my hips flex automatically, and the now warmer liquid from my navel seeps over my belly. Thomas moves quickly, lapping it up with his tongue, kissing, biting me softly, sucking. "Oh dear, Marisol, you moved. What am I going to do to you?" I'm panting loudly. All I can concentrate on is his voice and his touch. Nothing else is real. Nothing else matters, nothing else registers on my radar. His fingers slip into my panties, and I'm rewarded with his unguarded sharp intake of air. "Oh, baby," he murmurs and he pushes two fingers inside me. I gasp. "Ready for me so soon," he says. He moves his fingers tantalizingly slowly, in, out, and I push against him, tilting my hips up. "You are a greedy girl," he scolds softly, and his thumb circles my clitoris and then presses down. I groan loudly as my body bucks beneath his expert fingers. He reaches up and pushes the t-shirt over my head so I can see him as I blink in the soft light of my sidelight. I long to touch him. "I want to touch you," I breathe. "I know," he murmurs. He leans down and kisses me, his fingers still moving rhythmically inside me, his thumb circling and pressing. His other hand scoops my hair off my head and holds my head in place. His tongue mirrors the actions of his fingers, claiming me. My legs begin to stiffen as I push against his hand. He gentles his hand, so I'm brought back from the brink. He does this again and again. It's so frustrating... Oh please Thomas, I scream in my head. "This is your punishment, so close and yet so far. Is this nice?" he breathes in my ear. I whimper, exhausted, pulling against my restraint. I'm helpless, lost in an erotic torment. "Please," I beg, and he finally takes pity on me. "How shall I fuck you, Marisol?" Oh... my body starts to quiver. He stills again. "Please." "What do you want?" "You... now," I cry. "Shall I fuck you this way, or this way, or this way. There's an endless choice," he breathes against my lips. He withdraws his hand and reaches over to the bedside table for a foil packet. He kneels up between my legs, and very slowly he pulls my panties off, staring down at me, his eyes gleaming. He puts on the condom. I watch fascinated, mesmerized. "How nice is this?" he says as he strokes himself. "I meant it as a joke," I whimper. Please fuck me, Thomas. He raises his eyebrows as his hand moves up and down his impressive length. "A joke?" His voice is menacingly soft. "Yes. Please, Thomas," I beseech him. "Are you laughing now?" "No," I mewl. I am just one ball of sexual, tense, need. He stares down at me for a moment, measur-ing my need, then he grabs me suddenly and flips me over. It takes me by surprise, and because my hands are tied, I have to support myself on my elbows. He pushes both my knees up the bed so my behind is in the air, and he slaps me hard. Before I can react, he plunges inside me. I cry out-from the slap and from his sudden assault, and I cum instantly again and again, falling apart beneath him as he continues to slam deliciously into me. He doesn't stop. I'm spent. I can't take this... and he pounds on and on and on... then I'm building again... surely not... no. "Come on, Marisol, again," he growls through clenched teeth, and unbelievably, my body responds, convulsing around him as I climax anew, calling out his name. I shatter again into tiny fragments, and Thomas stills, finally letting go, silently finding his release. He collapses on top of me, breathing hard. "How nice was that?" he asks through his gritted teeth. Oh my. I lie panting and spent on the bed, eyes closed as he slowly pulls out of me. He rises immediately and dresses. When he's fully clothed, he climbs back on the bed and gently undoes his tie and pulls my t-shirt off. I flex my fingers and rub my wrists, smiling at the woven pattern imprinted on my wrists from the tie. I re-adjust my bra as he pulls the duvet and quilt over me. I stare up at him completely dazed, and he smirks down at me. "That was really nice," I whisper, smiling coyly. "There's that word again." "You don't like that word?" "No. It doesn't do it for me at all." "Oh-I don't know... it seems to have a very beneficial effect on you." "I'm a beneficial effect, now am I?Could you wound my ego any further, Miss Solatti?" "I don't think there's anything wrong with your ego." But even as I say it, I don't feel the conviction of my words-something elusive crosses my mind, a fleeting thought, but it's lost before I can grasp it. "You think?" His voice is soft. He's lying beside me, fully clothed, his head propped up on his elbow, and I am only wearing my bra. "Why don't you like to be touched?" "I just don't." He reaches over and plants a soft kiss on my forehead. "So, that text was your idea of a joke." I smile apologetically at him and shrug. "I see. So you are still considering my proposition?" "Your indecent proposal... yes I am. I have issues though." He grins down at me as if relieved. "I'd be disappointed if you didn't." "I was going to text them to you, but you kind of interrupted me." "Coitus Interruptus." "See, I knew you had a sense of humor somewhere in there." I smile. "Only certain things are funny, Marisol. I thought you were saying no, no discussion at all." His voice drops. "I don't know yet. I haven't made up my mind. Will you collar me?" He raises his eyebrows. "You have been doing your research. I don't know, Marisol. I've never collared anyone." Oh... should I be surprised by this. I know so little about the scene... I don't know. "Were you collared?" I whisper. "Yes." "By Mrs Darna?" "Mrs Darna!" he laughs loudly, freely, and he looks so young and carefree, his head thrown back, his laughter infectious. I grin back at him. "I'll tell her you said that, she'll love it." "You still talk to her regularly?" I can't keep the shock out of my voice. "Yes." He's serious now. Oh... and part of me is suddenly insanely jealous-I'm disturbed by the depth of my feeling. "I see." My voice is tight. "So you have someone you can discuss your alternative lifestyle with, but I'm not allowed." He frowns. "I don't think I've ever thought about it like that. Mrs. Darna was part of that lifestyle. I told you, she's a good friend now. If you'd like, I can introduce you to one of my my exes, you could talk to them." Is he deliberately trying to upset me? "Is this your idea of a joke?" "No, Marisol." He's bemused as he shakes his head earnestly. "No-I'll do this on my own, thank you very much," I snap at him, pulling the duvet up to my chin. He stares at me, at sea, surprised. "Marisol, I... " He's lost for words. A first, I think. "I didn't mean to offend you." "I'm not offended. I'm appalled." "Appalled?" "I don't want to talk to one of your ex-girlfriends." "Marisol Solatti-are you jealous?" I flush, crimson. "Are you staying?" "I have a breakfast meeting tomorrow with Dylan and the rest of the cast. Besides, I told you." I can hear the resolve behind his soft, husky voice. I purse my lips at him. "Well I'm tired now." "Are you kicking me out?" He raises his eyebrows at me, amused and a little dismayed. "Yes." "Well that's another first." He eyes me speculatively. "So nothing you want to discuss now, about the contract." "No." I reply petulantly. "God, I'd like to give you a good hiding. You'd feel a lot better, and so would I." "You can't say things like that... I haven't signed anything yet." "A man can dream, Marisol." He leans over me and grasps my chin. "Wednesday?" he murmurs, and he kisses me lightly on my lips. "Wednesday," I agree. "I'll see you out. If you give me a minute." I sit up and grab my t-shirt, pushing him out of the way. Amused and reluctant, he gets up off the bed. "Please pass me my sweat pants." He collects them from the floor and hands them to me. "Yes, ma'am." He's trying unsuccessfully to hide his smile. I narrow my eyes at him as I slip the pants on. My hair is a state, and I know I'll have to face the Kaley Smith after he's gone. Grabbing a hair tie, I walk to my bedroom door, opening it slightly checking for Kaley. She is not in the living area. I think I can hear her on the phone in her room. Thomas follows me out. During the short walk from bedroom to front door, my thoughts and feelings ebb and flow, transforming. I'm no longer angry with him, I feel suddenly unbearably shy. I don't want him to go. For the first time, I'm wishing he was-normal-wanting a normal relationship that doesn't need a ten-page agreement, a flogger. I open the door for him and stare down at my hands. This is the first time I have ever had sex in my home, and as sex goes, I think it was pretty damn fine. But now I feel like a receptacle-an empty vessel to be filled at his whim. My subconscious shakes her head. I wanted to run to his apartment for sex - I had it express-delivered. My subconscious crosses her arms and taps her foot with a what-are-you-complaining-about-look on her face. Thomas stops in the doorway and clasps my chin, forcing my eyes to meet his. His brow creases slightly. "You okay?" he asks tenderly as his thumb lightly caresses my bottom lip. "Yes." I reply, though in all honesty I'm just not sure. I feel a paradigm shift. I know that if I do this thing with him, I will get hurt. He's not capable, interested, or willing to offer me any more... and I want more. Much more. The surge of jealousy I felt only moments ago tells me that I have deeper feelings for him than I have admitted to myself. "Wednesday," he confirms, and he leans forward and kisses me softly. Something changes while he's kissing me, his lips grow more urgent against mine, his hand moves up from my chin and he's holding the side of my head, his other hand on the other side. His breathing accelerates. He deepens the kiss, leaning into me. I put my hands on his arms. I want to run them through his hair, but I resist, knowing that he won't like it. He leans his forehead against mine, his eyes closed, his voice strained. "Marisol," he whispers. "What are you doing to me?" "I could say the same to you," I whisper back. Taking a deep breath, he kisses my forehead and leaves. He strolls purposefully down the path towards his car as he runs his hand through his hair. Glancing up as he opens his car door, he smiles his breathtaking smile. My answering smile is weak, completely dazzled by him, and I'm reminded once more of Icarus soaring too close to the Sun. I close the front door as he climbs into his car. I have an overwhelming urge to cry, sad and lonely melancholy grips and tightens around my heart.

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