Now you guys better not think which dumbfuck falls for a girl online. But then I am a master of doing dumb stuff since the day I was born. Let me start by telling you why I joined twitter. Please don't judge me but it was to access free porn. According to me, twitter has the best porn on the internet and that too for free. Every teenager worth his salt knows that. Then I got bored with porn. You guys must be thinking that I am lying but it's the goddamn truth. I swear on my dead grandma that I completely stopped watching porn. You must think that something traumatic must have happened for a teenage guy to stop watching a man and woman or multiple men and women having sex. But nothing of the sort happened. I just got plain bored of the shit, that's all. I then moved on to political twitter. I got bored of this political bullshit faster than I thought. Then I moved on to something called stan twitter where you flirt with random strangers online. Kinda like a dating site but with much more interaction. I met a girl in a group chat and we vibed. It became a habit for me to chat with this girl. She was a real sweet person. She used to care for me. We became good friends and not a day went by without saying I love you to each other. Now don't get the wrong idea that we were in love or anything. It's just common on twitter to say I love you to complete strangers. This may sound weird to people who have never been on stan twitter but it's so normal for those who are part of it. Now this girl made me feel alive. The best part of my day was when I chatted with her. I was happy after a long time. We started stanning each other. She made a playlist for me. We sub-tweeted each other. And to inform all those pervs out there, yes we also sexted with each other. But then, all good things must come to an end. Let me put one thing straight. We weren't a couple and never promised to love each other for a lifetime or anything like that. We were just good friends. So we flirted with others too. And so it happened that she fell for someone else on twitter. That wasn't surprising actually. Lots of people on twitter fall for others and not for their best friend. I was actually okay with that or so I thought. But then I felt something called jealousy and then I realised that I actually loved that girl. I confessed the same to her. And that was the biggest mistake I made because she started ghosting me thereon. If she replied at all to my numerous messages, it was in monosyllables. She became best friends with that guy. And I was left high and dry. All her promises that we will be best friends for life were gone with the wind. I tried to move on and make new friends. But I ended up comparing everyone with her when nobody could care for me like she did. I tried to remain friends with her by texting her on and off but she wasn't really interested in talking to me. It was like banging my head against a wall. I was a complete mess now with mood swings that matched a girl's during her periods. The kicker is that I was still in love with her even though I didn't want to be. I mean you just can't stop loving someone just because they don't love you. I guess you can't choose to love or hate someone, it just can't be fucking controlled. I have now decided to deactivate twitter and hoping that I move on from her. That's my dumb twitter love story or to be accurate non-love story.
