The person I was looking for 💗

Chapter 21

Chimon's p.o.v.

Everytime I am with P'Pluem, I am always happy.

I forget all mu tiredness and sadness of whole day.

This is something common... Something which is

expected... Something which is supposed to

happen... But today... Today it isn't like that... I

am not happy... Why!? He is right beside me... I

can't even look at him... Why the fu*k it's so

painful!? Ah I wanna cry! But I can't... I can't

cry... Cause I said we will be friends... I don't

wanna be friends with him! I really don't! But what

can I do!? He's right... I am a prince and he's from

a royal family too... Even P'Gun likes boys... He

got married with P'Off who is practically a boy....

And now if I also act the same... Will it be okay?

Our father... He'll be disappointed for sure... First

P'Gun and me too.... Wait P'Gun? I just

remembered once P'Gun told me that “Chimon no

matter whomever you love never let go that easily,

If you don't fight for your love, who will? If you

don't try to make your life as you want, who will?

If you don't love the way your life is, will you be

able to love the way you are living? Ghi listen, I

like boys and nobody can't change it, they can't

decide if I can like boys or not. It's my life it have

to be the way I want. I will spent it with the

person I want to. Nobody is allowed to decide any

fu*king thing for me."

Ah what should I do? Should I do what P'Gun

would've done? Will it be okay to do it?

I looked back at P'Pluem, he is not looking at my

side. As far as I know him he's still awake. Should

I just ignore what happened a while ago? Should I

just do what I want to do? But right now I want to

get out of this fu*king tent and cry the hell out...

I got out of the tent and of course P'Pluem saw me

getting out the tent but he didn't said anything as

he understands that I need space.

I sat under a tree and looked at the sky. Should I

call P'Gun and ask for advice? Forget it ... He's on

his dream honeymoon... I'd better not disturb him.

Ah why?! Why!? Why me!?! Ah!!! I HATE

EVERYTHING! I HATE WHAT'S GOING ON! I

HATE MY HEART! WHY THE HELL IT IS SO

IDIOT!? DAMN!