what I had to deal with

not believing is closing your eyes to the obvious

so since I was a little kid I've always felt presences all around my house just so you know I lived in Cuba and that is where I spent most of my childhood it was hard for me but that is for another book i am planning to write well like I said I use to feel them, they made me feel cold they told me things, but never seen them now I don't know if they are here to harm me or to do good to me but they sure scare me. well as some of you know Cuba is a big country in the culture of religion and all that if we go back in history a bit in between the years 1503 and 1873 a lot of African people were unrightfully taken from their lands to be transported to Cuba thousands of them were transported and between those only a few hundreds would make it thanks to the heat and low water level their consumed also the fact that no food was given to them while being transported it was truly devastating, I think that also has to be one of the reasons why energy fields are so big in Cuba I would feel certain areas that were much richer in energy than other and other areas just felt good and had an specific smells that should not even be there. As a kid I felt this but I am not the only one my brother being 20 years old used to carry me from my room so i could sleep with him at mid night he said that he liked spending time with me but it wasn't until like a year ago that I mentioned him the lady in white that sometimes showed in the living room and sometimes walked in a fast pace thought the doors letting her hair cover her face, and he told me that he also saw that and that is why he went to pick me up every night he stayed until late... so I could calm her apparently whenever I was close she would not show herself as much now that i am thinking back maybe she knew I was afraid to see her which to be honest yes I was. Do you all have that feeling of being watched and the necessity to leave your eyes opened when you are showering? well I truly believe that that is our 6th sense kicking in once again how do you explain that everyone feels the same? I recently just joined the military and they gave us a full class about environment awareness that explains that if everything seems to be under control and everything is the same and normal but you get the most minimal sense of danger please have your rifle ready to kill and on the alert this was said by a Marine combat instructor that has been doing his job for 12 years now, so... when things seem normal but you are just feeling like its not jus be on the alert and legit thing of a plan of scape this is not only for combat but it applies to everything in life. We all got it its just a thing of practicing letting that feelin g take over, yes let it take over be afraid but brave being afraid if good when combined with bravery. I used to always be afraid of whatever was in the house and at school kids used to play games with the pencils moving and tell scary stories of things that happened to them in their houses, like I said in Cuba a lot of things happened so kids where influenced by it including a girl committing suicide thanks to her house being haunted. well all of these stories did not help me to have a little bit pf confidence while in my house because now that i am thinking back maybe that thing was not bad but the stories I heard were molding my head to believe that whatever was in there was not good at all. I used to be really scared all the time well my brother while being in Cuba decided to get along with a religion that attached him to a Saint that would take care of him he used to have Coconuts laying around the house that looked like they had faces and he also wore chain and bracelets that would mean he is being protected be his own saint. Well I've always believed that there really no need for one to get with one of these thing I know that this religion does some pretty messed up things so I decided not to get into it and not ask questions at all i would even look at it, after he had that thing in the house apparently I could not longer get in his room or make loud noises or whistle, these type of action would annoy the saint, so my relationship with my brother kind of got a little deteriorated. Now I am not going to lie these religion makes bank because its really expensive to get in I personally have not seen any improvement in my brothers life because money does not really work for him and relationships with his own dad and mom are not that good and he has been drinking and smoking I am very sad to say that he would not have a long life I personally don't see him having a good time in life. man I love that man we have so many good memories, he even gave me this computer I am writing with, well like I said I felt every singe thing that happened in the house every energy including mine, now my energy is pretty good I am positive most of the time and that is good because I enlighten people around I inspire them to work harder because I also work harder and I am happy about working. Anyways I tried to go more into details with what happened in the area and apparently it was dominated by Spain and they formed a lot of fortes or building to post security and there where a lot of ladies from Spain Cuba was a beautiful place for them coming form Spain where beaches are only in the boarder Cuba was surrounded by beaches and beautiful ones, also not to mention shark attack in Cuba are Very Very rare thanks to a barrier or corals that would let them do that. Well Cuba was their spot because they had a lot of sugar since Cuba had one of the biggest productions or Sugar and also Tabaco some might even say one of the best Tabaco ever, I cant tell you that because I don't smoke but I can tell you right now my dad sold a single Tabaco for a 100 bucks and they took it out of his hands well in that specific area where I lived which was "Calle Cuba entre Victoria y union" there is a hospital called hospital Lenin they named it after some hero that did something important, well this area was like the center of Spanish people to be there is a lot of catholic churches and parks very old style since the president genuinely dint not give a crap about the population well thing are almost intact.., thing is that things are attached to the places since it really has not changed a lot at all well there was a very beautiful story or legend about a woman that had a boyfriend that was african and we all know what was people ideas at that movement and place bout black people and what they were like in the book to kill the mockingbird they thought that black people were machines and has no feelings. well she happened to fall in love with him and her husband found out about this things she was doing well what he did was putting the slave in the water system and filled it with water and he dawned which I think is the worst way to die because you just die slowly and your muscle shot down and your lungs also get filled with water but your brain take a while till this happens you would be lucky if you just pass out after a minute and feel nothing after your lungs gets fills with water and all that good stuff well up until this day there is a museum in the center of the city that describes this and obviously thing that happened while fighting for independence and un the middle of this museum you could find a well and they said that at night they can hear two people singing they described it to be a woman and a man singing together and that they cant really understands what is it but that it did not scare them. now the closest thing to link with this woman in my house was this but later I found that a woman die peacefully in a house built right bellow where our building was they just happened to rebuilt the area so more people could fit in, that would explain why it wouldn't do crazy stuff around the house or anything like that but since my brother started doing his Santeria it kind of vanished away I didn't mind it, I could not longer see anything but felt heavy energies coming from all over the place. I believe that whatever my brother is doing is not good because in order for that thing to protect him he has to do a lot of things in return, the first time I found out that this type of things where negative and I needed to get out was when my brother wanted to date this white chick from the block but she would like him, and apparently he called lesbian or something, well they day of the 21th birthday right before she stepping out to a limo she rented it started to rain a lot and all my family was like no way that is happening and we all looked at my brother and asked what did you do? but we were obviously just kidding but now that I am thinkin back he probably told he saint to do something well her birthday got delayed by like 3 hour and the floor was wet. well