Dancing In The Rain

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(a/n) slight trigger warning🚨
Self-harm- Not eating

February 2, 2031 5:58 am
'Good morning to me i guess

Actually no. bad morning'

I wrote in my diary, which I haven't done in a while. I lost my diary a like, around 3 weeks back. I found it under my bed again last night. Well not literally, George, told me he saw a "book" under my bed. Wonder what he was doing there... s u s

'I think I might have feelings for George, after what happened a couple of days ago

flashback

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he next 10 minutes passed and I herd foot steps coming toward me. I did have a shovel so I turned around quickly

"George, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be in bed? Sleeping? I thought you were mad at me? You shouldn't be her-"

"Shut up you'll get us both in trouble"

"So no one knows your here...? I see..." I tease, winking. Why? Why in the hell did I wink?? Do I ready like him? oh god noooo! I started screaming.
Internally of course

"Listen I'm not mad at you-?"

"Then why did you leave me at lunch?"

"What?"

"I thought we would sit together..."

"I asked you if you wanted to-"

"Well maybe I don't like your friends!"

"What?"

"Sorry, that just... came out. I do like your friends, a lot, but I just want to hang out with you. Alone."

"Well we're alone now..?"

"I don't really care "now""

"Well that's not my fau-"

"I'm sorry. But if you don't wanna hang out during the day then..."

"Then what?

"Then maybe we shouldn't hang out at all"

"Are you saying we can't be..."

"I'm not saying we can't. I'm saying we shouldn't."

"Aight" He turned around to leave...

"Really?"

"YES REALLY! OKAY? DO YOU NOT GET IT? I'M IN LOV-- nevermind"

end of flashback

I don't even want to know what's going on with him. I don't want to know who he's in love with.
I don't want anything to do with that... with that... asshole.

Even though I might like him. Nope, no I don't. But I might be catching feelin- No! I. don't. like. him. Even if I did he would never like me back.

Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz.

My alarm started to ring. 6:15 am.
Great, another stupid day.
High school was going so good for me. Hopefully, they didn't announce that 'Our dear Saoirse Mulligan will not be coming back to school cause her parents met freaking JESUS'

I wanna go back to school. To my best friends Rebecca, Lena and Sophie.

We would hang out everyday. We would all meet in the park on the weekends. I miss them. I wonder how they're doing, we all applied to the same college... Lucyane College.

We were really hoping that we would be able to go to school together, I just didn't think this would happen. I'm turning 18 next year, I hate being 17, 'if someone tells me one more time, " enjoy your youth" I'm gonna cry'

word count: 542 words 

(a/n) filler chapter, i decided to quote some Olivia Rodrigo, i love her, my favorite songs from her album are Brutal, Enough For You, Happier, Traitor and Deja Vu😌