"Cut to deep"

Your pov:

The tears make ny eyes sting.

The tears i tried to keep in.

I just wanted this to end, to feel free and let everything slipp away.

Why couldnt people just take that me and Harry were happy?

Why couldnt they be happy for Harry?

Why send me all of this hate that just make me feel like a nothing?

Maybie i am nothing..

The clock were ticking on the wall behind me in the kitchen when i tried to get the food inside.

Latly my body didnt want the food and everything i tried to eat, just came out again.

"Your making me worried to death" Harry said from the seat infront of me.

I didnt dare to look him in the eyes so i just kept my eyes down to the plate of food.

"Why cant you talk to me anymore. I can tell that your not happy. Are you not happy with me anymore?" Harry asked me.

I could hear in his voice that it was hard for him to ask.

It wasnt for him that i felt like this but i just couldnt talk to him.

Harry sighed and took his plate to the sink and walked back infront of me.

"You should maybie think about what you want between us cause i can tell your not happy. I need to go to work and i will be back later tonight" Harry said and walked out the door.

As soon as the door to the house closed, i broke down in the kitchen.

The urge to cut became worse and worse.

I didnt want to do it.

I didnt fo it anymore.

"one time, just one little cut" i said to myself.

I pulled myself out of bed and walked towards the bathroom.

I stood infront of the mirror, looking at my skinny body but i saw myself five times bigger.

I could find flaws everywere i looked and i closed my eyes and the tears started pouring down again.

My fingers lingerd over the sharp edge of the razor, just waiting to feel the cold metal against my skin again.

Ive missed the feeling.

" Only one time" i said to myself and pressed the razor against my wrist.

I gasped for air, feeling the good pain go threw my arm.

The red blood dripping down my arm and down on to the wite bathroom floor.

"Just one more time" i said and slided it over next to the first one.

The same pain went threw my arm and for the first time in a long time, i could say that the smile i had on my face was real.

"I can make one more" i said and did another one.

I accedently pressed to hard and i cut threw my vein.

I didnt even do a thing.

I just stood there staring at my arm and watching the blood pour out my arm fast.

My sight started to get dizzy and black dots came across my eyes.

I fell to the floor and i slipped a tear out, knowing what was gonna happen.

" I love you Harry" was the last thing i said before the bright light took me.

Harrys pov:

I didnt know if i wanted to go home today.

I didnt want to hear hear her say that she didnt want to be with me anymore.

I loved her and she was the one.

How would i suppose to live if she left me?

The rain came slowly down the sky.

"Let me drive you home Harry, its raining" Louis said from the door window.

" nah its cool. I need some fresh air anyways" i said and gave Louis a convincing smile.

"Okey, it will get better between you and (y/n). I promise" Louis said and waved good bye.

God i hoped Louis were right.

My heart were speeding when i took the last step up to the door.

I took a deep breath, waiting for the right moment to walk in and face her.

One last deep breath and i walked inside.

"hello, im home" i called out.

I couldnt see her anywere and i heard no sound.

A wierd feeling started working itself up my spine.

I knew something wasnt right.

I walked up to the bathroom door, to afraid to open the door.

I didnt want to see behind the closed door but i had no choise.

"Baby?" i said and i opened the door.

All my blood went down my face and i dropped to the floor.

I could berly breath, seeing the live of my life dead in her own blood.

"No please" i cried out and crawled over to her.

Her perfect pink lips wasnt pink .anymore, they were blue.

I pulled her up into my lap.

"I should have stayed this morning. This is my fault. Please come back to me. I cant stand to not see your besutiful face everyday" i shouted and the tears were burning my sight.

I stroked my hand over her cold cheek, and i kissed her blue, cold lips one last time.

"You will be with me forever. I will never forgett you and some day we will stand beside echother again. I love you angel" i said and closed the door to the bathroom.

I slided down the door, still crying and i took my phone up.

"i need an ambulance" i said when 911 answerd.

"she took her life, my future wife" i said and looked at the ring i held in my hand.

"I didnt make it in time"

The end!