AniDita SS: Sansaar Mera...

~CHAPTER : 1~

I'll be borrowing the premise of that episode for the sake of better understanding.

Bondita suspects the so-called Iyer Swamy to be a kidnapper and hides from him. As soon as she sees him, she recognizes him to be Chandrachur's man and her doubts come true as she recalls Chandrachur talking about kidnapping Vaijayanti, thinking her to be Anirudh's bride. To prevent getting exposed, she runs into a room, where she sees her pictures, toys, dresses and all other things related to her, present there. She smiles and roams around a room and gets a box and pens to see many unsent letters to her kept in it. She opens it and startss reading it, imagining Anirudh speaking to her.

" Picchli chitthiyon ki tarah, ye chithhi bhi mein tumhe bhejunga nahi, aur na hi tumhe pata chalega ki kya kya badal gaya hai yahan... Lekin phir bhi, mein yeh chithhi likhna chahta hoon! Yeh mehsoos karne ke liye, ki mein kitna akelapan mehsoos kar raha hoon. Sab hain yahan, phir bhi mein akela mehsoos kar raha hoon Bondita... Dushmani hai na humari, maine bhi Bondita, dushmani ka parcham uthaya hai! Jaanti ho? Banduk rakhne laga hoon apne saath, mein kisi ko bata nahi paa raha ki nahi pasand mujhe yeh sab - dushmani, khoon-kharaaba karna... Yeh mein nahi hoon! Mujhe tumhari zaroorat hai Bondita, tumhare sakha babu ko tumhari bahut zarurat hai.

Tumhara Sakha Babu..."

"Aaj aath saal baad tum London se Barrister babu Bondita bankar lauti ho, aur aaj tumhari shakal bhi nahi dekhi maine. Kyunki jaanta hoon ki agar tumhe dekh leta, toh khudko rok nahi pata...Nahi rok pata apni hasi, apne behte aansu jo tumhe humara sapna pura karte dekh rahe the... Jaanta hn aaj jaise haalaat hain, hum ek nahi ho sakte... Ab hum dobara kabhi nahi milenge... Par..."

Tumhara Sakha Babu..."

"Par? Par kya, Sakha babu?"

Asked Bondita, waiting for her answers desperately. She could see tear marks on each letter and tears trickled down her eyes. He had to suffer so much back then and it was quite visible how much he had longed for her. But he never let her know her anything. Despite all this, he still took her responsibility and kept on helping and encouraging her to study and fulfill THEIR dream.

How could a man be so strong even after being so broken...?

"Jaanta hoon humare rishte ko khatam karne ka zeher pina hoga mujhe, apne zindagi se tumhara naam mitana hoga mujhe... Pura Krishnanagar, pura Tulsipur khilaaf hoga humare rishte ke... Na chahte huye bhi humare beech sab kucch badalna hoga, jo ek cheez nahi badal sakti- woh humari dushmani hai, Bondita... Aur yeh baat mujhe humesha khaati rahegi par, chahe jo ho jaaye Bondita par mein tumse milunga nahi... Milna toh dur, mein tumhe dekhunga bhi nahi! Ek shabd nahi kahega yeh BARRISTER ANIRUDH ROY CHAUDHRY, BON... BARRISTER BONDITA se... Par...

Tumhara Sakha Babu..."

'' Par kya Sakha babu?! Please bataiye na, PAR KYA?? Please bataiye!!

Screamed Bondita and fell down on her knees. A glass bottle fell down, releasing the caged fireflies. She looked at them and smiled.

" Mein jaanti hoon, Sakha Babu. Aap mujhe bhoole nahi hain, mein jaanti hoon ki mein ab bhi aapke khayalon mein zinda hoon... Aapki aankhon mein dikhta hai...!"

Said Bondita smilingly. Just then she heard some footsteps and kept the letters in its respective place. Anirudh who was passing through the corridor, saw the door unlocked. Being enraged at the thought of his secret solace being invaded, he barged into the room only to see an afraid Vaijayanti standing near the table, holding a toy.

" B.. Ba..Barrister babu, yeh aapki Bon... AAAAHHH!!"

A nervous Bondita tried speaking but her sentence was left incomplete as Anirudh pulled her harshly by her right arm, and roared,

" USKA NAAM APNE ZUBAAN PAR LAANE KI HIMMAT BHI MAT KARNA!!"

Bondita requested to listen to her and tried getting out of his hold but was unsuccessful. She even got a deep scratch on her arm due to a nail on the wall but Anirudh didn't notice as he was busy dragging her downstairs. He left her arm after reaching downstairs and she fell down stumbling on her saree. Kaka entered the scene and tried calming him down but Anirudh unleashed his anger at her and went away. Bondita weeped and reached near the fountain where Bihari told her the reason for Anirudh's anger and apolgised for her behaviour. Vaijayanti sees Bihari's helpless face and decides to bring the Old Anirudh back and returns home. 

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Here, Sampoorna who wanted to make Anirudh realize his mistake, went to his room and saw him reading a book. Anirudh asked her to take a seat.

"Tum uske saath itni sakti se kyun peshaate ho?"

She asked sitting down. Anirudh looked away and said,

" Usne meri puraani yaadon ko zinda karne ki koshish ki, Sampoorna Maa. Mere beete huye kal ke saath chhed-chhaad karne ki koshish ki usne aur woh... woh mein hargiz nahi seh sakta... "

Replied Anirudh.

"Hmm... Toh agar woh kal beet chuka hai, toh usse tum itna pareshaan kyun ho? Agar bhool gaye ho tum unn yaadon ko, toh phir kyun takleef de rahi hain woh tumhe? "

"Anirudh, Vaijayanti kya chahti hai? Yahi na, ki sab yahan hasein, muskuraye... Ab hum sab hasna, muskuraana bhool gaye hain, toh usme uski kya galti? Kya tum kisik khush rehne ki sazaa de sakte ho? Kya tum iss baat ki sazaa de sakta hai ki woh chahta hai ki tum khush raho?! Kya tum uski chhoti-chhoti galatiyon ko maaf nahi kar sakte?"

Asked Sampoorna supporting Vaijayanti. She sighed not getting any response.

"Khair, mujhe jo kehna tha, maine keh diya... Ab baaki, jo tumhe sahi lage..."

She said getting up and going out of the room.

Anirudh analysed all the happenings and realised that, in fit of anger, he had hurt Vaijayanti and vented out at an innocent soul. He felt guilty and decided to make up for his mistake.