GerPol Universe: Belgium's story

Chapter 1 (2 June)

Hello reader(s). This book is about Belgium during, before and after my GerPol book series. It will switch through different times. If the cover looks familiar, then thats because it look exactly like a IRL book . This is Belgium's story. Enjoy!

this book contains:

Trauma

PTBMCF 

self harm

Bullying

crush (not like crushing something, but the love thing)

--Belgium's POV--

--2  May (3 months before 'GerPol: Sick'--

I am sitting on a hill. Finnaly some rest. I see something coming towards me. I hear a bang. I wake up sweating. "Ugh, that nightmare again. I just want to forget that." I get up out of bed. I walk downstairs. My brother Netherlands comes to me. "Your finnaly up. Its allready 14 PM." I look at him. I am still tired. He tells me he allready called France and told that i couldn't come. I nod. I walk to the kitchen. Netherlands gives me coffee. I thank him. I cough. Netherlands looks worried at me. "Are you sick?" I shake my head. "It's just a single cough." I immediately cough again. My brother gives me cough syrup. "No no, i dont need it." "Take it!" "no. I am not sick!" "Yes you are!" "Fine!" I take the cough syrup. My brother leaves for work. I lay down and close my eyes.

--Unknown Time Later--

"Wake up Belsch!" I jump out of the couch. "W-what's wrong?!" I look at Luxembourg laughing, while holding hands with his new boyfriend Liechtenstein. "You got pranked." I cough again. "Aren't you supposed to be at work?" He shakes his head. "I took vacation together with Liechtenstein." I nod. He asks why i am not at work too. "Sick." He nods and goes upstairs with Liechtenstein. I take the TV remote and start the TV. I switch through the channels. I eventually stop. It's a documentary. I look for a while, to find out what it's about. I see a big explosion on the TV. I get flashbacks. 

--Luxembourg's POV--

Me and Liechtenstein are watching a Romantic movie. Suddenly he pauses the movie. "Do you hear that?" I listen to every single sound carefully. I hear soft sobbing. Is that Belgium? We run downstairs. I see Belgium looking with wide eyes at the TV. He has tears in his eyes and is blinking slowly. He is saying something, but we cant understand. "Belsch! Belsch!! Belsch!!!" He doesn't snap out of it. I ask Liechtenstein for help, because he is a nurse. He is looking through our drawers. I am looking at Belgium. What is happening. Liechtenstein comes back with a weird candle. He asks for a lighter. I go to the kitchen and give him it. He lights the candle, and holds it under Belgium's nose. It looks like Belgium snaps out of it. I ask what just happened. "I-i dont k-know. I t-think i am going to take a n-nap." I nod and shut the TV down. Belgium is allready assleep. I am gonna tell Netherlands what happened when he is home.

--17:06 PM--

Netherlands opens the door. "Hello." "Hello Holland. I need to tell you something." Netherlands looks curious at me. "What is it." I tell him what happened. His eyes widen. He looks at Belgium and back at me. "We will talk about it when Belgium is awake." I nod. Liechtenstein goes home.

--17:32 PM--

--Belgium's POV--

I wake up. It takes some time to get up. I have small headache. I slowly walk to the kitchen. Luxembourg looks concerned at me. I dont know why. I sit down. Netherlands looks stressed. Luxembourg breaks the akward silence. "Belsch. Do you remember what happened some hours earlier." I shake my head. "I found you with wide eyes, sobbing and talking to yourself." I know what he talks about now. I look at Netherlands. I try to think of something. "I was probably just talking in my sleep, i had a nightmare." Luxembourg looks suspicious at me. "Tell me the truth." "I am telling the truth." Luxembourg starts to look sad and tears up. "I thought you could trust me. I thought we were brothers. But still you dont want to tell me your secret. I care about you, but your not letting me. This is the worst pain i have eer felt." He starts to cry. I feel super guilty. "I am sorry. It's a trauma i think. I dont know what it is exactly. I have that thing sometimes, everytime i hear an explosion or thunder." Luxembourg looks at me shocked. He asks why we didn't tell. "I was scared you wouldn't be ready to hear it." Luxembourg nods. "Since when do you have that?" I tell him i have it since 1965. "Sorry, Luxemburg." He hugs me. "It's okay. I forgive you. Just dont keep something like that secret again. Okay?" I nod and thank him. "Now let's eat!" Me and Luxembourg both nod.

--4 Hours Later--

I silently get out of bed. I go to the kitchen and get a knife. I put it on my wrist. I cut it. I want to sit down, but miss the chair. It falls to the ground. That made a loud noise. I dont move. Okay nobody woke up. I cut my other wrist multiple times. I hear footsteps coming towards the kitchen. I quikly hide the knife and and pull my sleeves down. "Belsch?" "Hello Luxembourg." He asks what i am doing. "I am taking a glass of water." He nods and comes towards me. He hugs me. I ask why he is hugging me. "Because i want to." I nod. I take a glass of water and drink it. He asks for a glass. I fill it and give it to him. He drinks it in one time. He gives it back to me. I dry it and put it back in the drawer. "Are you okay? What was that loud noise?" "I accedentally tripped over the chair when i walked in." "Okay, i just wanted to check. I dont want you to get hurt. See you tommorow." "See you tommorow." He walks away. I am sorry. It will make Luxembourg very sad if he finds out i cut myself. Maybe i should stop for some time. Yeah, that's a good idea. I go upstairs and go to sleep.