FOREVER AND BEYOND

Be Mine

I don't even remember, how long, I have been crying. I looked at my phone to check the time. It's already been an hour, since I have been sitting on the island beside the road and bawling my eyes out. It's 10:30 at night. Jinwoo has been calling me non-stop and sending me messages. I.... I don't even want to see his name right now. How? How can he do this to me? How can my Jinwoo hurt me like that? But he.... No, he is no longer my Jinwoo. Just a while ago, I have left him. How could I leave him? I started crying even more. I couldn't control myself. I could feel my hands shaking. I could barely breathe properly. I lost him. I have lost the love of my life. And I said so many hurtful things to him. He deserved it. He ruined it. He destroyed everything, he destroyed me, in a whim. 

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It's almost 8. Jinwoo will be here any moment. I hurried and re read the script one last time. I feel so excited. I could barely concentrate on the script for tomorrows shoot. I will finally see him after a week. He will finally be here. I will be able to touch him and look at him all I want. I arranged everything and changed into a pretty tops. I want to look good for him today. I was doing some touch ups on my face, when I heard someone, putting in the password. It's him. It has to be him. 

I got out of the bedroom and stood infront of the door, as I saw him entering. He closed the door behind him and looked at me. He looks so tired, yet he gave me the brightest smile in the whole world. His smile, that is capable of bringing me to my knees, that is capable of making my heart flutter at any moment, the smile that can light up my whole world. I couldn't stand still any longer. I ran towards him, as he spread his arms. His arms embraced me, as soon as I hugged him and lifted me up sweeping my feet off the floor. God, I missed him so much. I missed his warmth, I missed his presence. 

" I missed you ", I said, as soon as he let me go.   

" I missed you too", saying this, he leaned forward and cupped my face. Then he slowly kissed me. I kissed him back. Slowly at first, and as soon as he realized the need we have right now, he started kissing me intensely. Even though, it's been 3 years and I have kissed him a thousand times, I still felt my body burning up, as soon as he intensely kissed me. He tastes like, everything I need. He tastes like, everything I love. 

As we pulled apart, I looked at him. He is looking at me, not smiling anymore. His eyes looking intently at my face and neck now. He leaned forward again and kissed on my neck, making me groan a bit. I could feel his lips curling up in satisfaction, against my neck. He knows what he is making me feel. He lifted me up again and headed towards the bedroom. 

As soon as I started unbuttoning his shirt, he stopped me. 

" Wait what time is it?", He suddenly asked. 

" I don't know. Why does it matter?", saying this, I focused on his shirt again. I want him now. 

" It does, Charlene, what is the time right now?", He asked again. 

What is wrong with him? 

" I don't know. 8:30?", I replied. I am growing impatient. I have no idea, why he needs to know the time right now. 

" What? I have to shower ", He suddenly said. 

" What?  Are you even serious?"
What the hell? What just happened? 

" Yes, Sorry Char. I feel really tired. Can we continue this later? After I have rested? ", He replied. 

" You....", I started saying, but I stopped. I feel furious. He's the one who led me on. He... How can he just ask me to stop. I wanted to yell at him. But I had to stop, by looking at his face. He is tired. He looks really really tired.