Blue Eyes

Pre-Face

Haley Foster

You only live once. This is what I try and live by. My motto maybe? But by saying this, does it mean it gives me the right to have feelings for my best friends boyfriend? Does it mean I should act on these feelings that I can’t seem to get rid of? I have everything I could possibly want, an amazing best friend and an awesome boyfriend. I hate the feeling of wanting more. Like I’m not okay with what I have. My whole life I have dreamed of hearing the perfect boy say those perfect words and me say them back. Everything is just exactly how I wanted it to be. But still, I’m not happy. Maybe it’s not me, maybe it’s someone else. Someone close to me. I know this thing that we have is going to be shattered wether I am the cause of it or not. 

I watched my best friend fall in love this summer. I watched myself do things I would have never done before, because of love. But that isn’t enough. Maybe there is someone else. Someone who I can’t have. Someone who I already know and shouldn’t have feelings for, but I know I do. And that someone is my best friends boyfriend.

If I’m not careful I might not have a perfect boyfriend or a best friend. I know if something happens, I won’t have anyone. 

Pre-Face

Bella Daniels

They always say you only live once, right? Then why was I here stuck in my doomed world where I couldn’t say or do anything right? Whatever decision I made was bound to hurt someone. My life has lived up to this moment to be in his arms hearing those perfect words but now something inside of me was screaming stop. As if my conscious knew there was something more out there that I needed to discover before I could take this step. It hurt more than I knew to stop this fairytale of an ending but I had to be true to myself and to him. This was something I learned last June that I never would have in the beginning. Well, really I’ve learned a lot from this summer that I would never have known. I was just a normal naive girl with her best friend just a couple months ago but here I was now living the life I had always imagined. I loved my life, my best friend, and my boyfriend who used to be the guy I admired from afar. Life was perfect. Then why was something so deep down telling me this was all a mistake? That this was only half of my story and maybe… there was someone else out there. Maybe someone who I already knew. Someone who I saw on a regular basis but with another girl strung closely in his arms. But this wasn’t just any girl he held tightly against him. That girl was my best friend.

And this was only half of my problem. His brother was my boyfriend. You would think all of these things should completely turn me off but they didn’t. That’s what scared me the most.