You Belong With Me (BoyXBoy)

Figuring Things Out

(Ryan's P.O.V.)
I sped down the highway with furry within me. I couldn't believe what I had saw. I drove right by me exit, used my ez-pass to go through the toll, and just kept driving. I didn't know where I was going, but I could survive. I had gas, money, my emergency credit card, some granola bars, my phone, and charger. I was very disappointed in my self. 3 years I waited, 3 fucking years I waited for him to make a move, and the moment I decide it's time to take action it gets fucked up.

I was too late. I should've gotten there sooner, but I had to go over my options. It's because I decided to think about the task at hand that they ended up together. I may still have a chance with Lucas. It can't be possible that Lucas is with that guy from my chem class who for some fricken reason I can't remember the goddam name of. Or is it? Am I missing something? Do they have something in common? Does Lucas, my sweet, insecure, innocent, cute Lucas, really like him? I knew one thing, I had to learn more about the guy from my chem class which for gods sake why can't I remember his fucking name, but where to start. Well I should probably figure out his name first. I'd figure it out from there.

3 hours later I pulled into the Indiana Convention Center. My phone started to buzz and I answered it, without checking the caller ID, big mistake. "Ryan William Adams! Where the hell are you!?!?" Shit it's my mother. Now my mother is the sweetest person on earth. She loves me, my dad, and my older sister Jenna. The issue is you can't lie to her, or all hell will break loose. "I'm in Indiana, mom." I tell her. Then she freaks out, "Why are you in Indiana young man." She yells. Those words hit me as I don't really know.

I look over at the glass convention center and ask myself, Why did I drive here? Why do I care so much about Lucas? I have Jessica, my beautiful caption of the cheer squad girlfriend, I have Hayden, my best friend, and I'm on my way to getting a football scholarship. So why do I need Lucas in my life to be happy? Am I gay? I still don't have an answer, but I need to get one so I can move on with my life. "I don't know, mom. I'm sorry, I'll be home as soon as possible." She gave me one of her classic sighs." Fine, just be safe, I love you." I quickly answered back with some sort of relief.

"I love you too mom." I hung up and get back into my car. I stop at a gas station, fill up my car, grab some dinner, and head home.